I feel like an excited little girl all over again!

And who can make me feel this way?
Barbie, of course!
I was too surprised to find out that there was a runway show featuring clothes that designers made with Barbie in mind!
I know I'm a bit slow, but the Barbie Runway Show on the 14th feb was simply fab!


Brings back memories of how I used to run into toy stores for their Barbies. I used to looove playing with my Barbies. And this runway show is rekindling my love for Barbie again.
Now to celebrate Barbie's 50th anniversary, 50 designers came up with their desgins for Barbie and here're some of my favorites:


(Christian Louboutin specially designed these heels in Barbie pink for this show. wow, i wanna wear socks with heels too)





(those blue gloves complete the look! i wonder if they sell those in sg. or can i diy gloves? remind myself to ask celia about it)

this was the first swimsuit Barbie wore! complete with a trench coat, i would wear them if i had them, honest. but wait til you see the next swim suit!)

(this whole outfit is my fave! the hat and ribbon and the grey and that blazer is just ooh la la. Rag and Bone= genius)






(this vintage two piece is just gorgeous. polka dots? check. big floppy hat? check. nude-ish gloves and high socks? check. i would so wear this to the pool! and risk resulting in stares but oooh it would be worth it!)

Don't you see Barbie wearing all these looks?
And not to mention that most of them are pink (!) and pretty and flattering
Barbie, if you find some clothes missing, you know who has 'em :D

Can't get enough?
Relieve your childhood days of Barbie with Barbie's blog! *gasps*
Hahaha and I'm just gushing here.

*drum rolls*

'what is my destiny, mom?'

what is my destiny, Dad?

-------------------------
'and the oscar goes to......'
watching the oscars now.
it's so inspiring that people like us can one day stand on a stage like that and be recognized for credit you deserve.
watching the winning actors and actresses tear as they make their speech.
they didn't think such a major thing would happen to them.


we don't think such a major thing will happen to us.
but it will :)

i know it will.
come on, we won't be shortchanged.

are you psyched?!

'cors i sure am!
it's emerge tmrw night!
i love emerge manzzzzzzz


and the theme will be campus revival/fever/oh-no-i-kinda-forgot = wear school uniform!

sigh, sure brings back all the memories of the last time i wore a uniform.
















but that's okay
because there'll be much more memories to be made tmrw night :D

i wonder..

despise our youth, never

i found this really interesting photo gallery on www.time.com, you can check it out if you want ;)
these photos really caught my interest.
who knew that this man who was described as charismatic and charming even as a teenager would be the president of America in the future?











yes, he is Mr Barrack Obama.
yes, he is the first black american to become president.
yes, he promises change.
yes, he brings hope to America and all influences.

yes,

we

can.

intermission- 30 mins.

what i really want now,
is to have a picnic with You.

i'd wear my prettiest dress, and You just have to be there.
it'll be at a garden with lovely trees filled with shades of green, brown and yellow leaves.
wild flowers will spring forth in abandon, dotting the ground with their little white petals.
my bare feet will crush the grass and leaves on the ground, joining in the sound of rustling leaves on the trees.
the strong old trees that shelter us, making me feel so safe.
no one will be here except for You and me, no one to interrupt. we can finally be alone.
oh, to just forget the cares of the crazy world. to just spend time with You without being distracted.

i would bring some food, though i know You can bring the best food or make anything i feel like eating.
i would bring some juice, though i know You can grow the apples and make juice in no time.
i would want to bring, but You provide. You always provide.
when will i see that all You want is for me to bring is simply myself?

we would sit together on the soft ground, on a checkered red picnic mat and a picnic basket next to us filled to the brim with food. we'd talk. i ask you questions about my life and You answering me in the way that you do. they may never be the full answers i want to hear but they are the right answers i need to hear.
then we'll just talk. me, about my day. even though You already knew what happened, You still stay and hear because You know that i just need someone to pour out all my worries and troubles and happiness and emotions to. then You will reply, sometimes with words so wise that i do not see what it means. we'd talk, how i love talking to You, and somehow the food and my hunger will lay forgotten.
because You are all that i need.

and when i start to get tired, we'll just lay on the grass bed. i'll be smiling, i'll be contented. i never want to leave You. to leave such peace, such calm. such love.
but You say that now that i'm well-rested, i should get back on and share the joy with others. keeping and holding it all to myself would be too selfish. keep loving, like how I love you.

and so the intermission ends, and the audience scurries back to their seats as the light dims.
the curtains begin to open and i take a deep breath as i walk up the stage.

my life is Your song.
let it be a sweet, sweet sound in Your ears.

big girls don't cry

but bride wars make grown men cry.

honest.
the guy beside me was wiping his tear.
anyways quite a lot has been happening, but now i've to do some stuff b4 my batt dies and i lost my charger so 45% batt is supposed to last me for some time *gulps*
shall update when use someone's charger or su'm heh

but before i go!



say bye to marquis!
he likes to sneak into my room cors he loves me :D

-

-

fine, he just likes to take my things and bite them. look at my stocking on the floor!
meanie.
just because he has sharp teeth and has a cute face.




and say goodbye to my dad + me +my hair.

hahah stupid hair i'm thinking of doing something to it.
perm or dye
Yay/Nay?

have yourself a swell day :D

a man is waiting in line at a bank where he meets his long time friend, the poet.


poet: everyday is an adventure! that's my motto.
man: oh, so what are you doing today?
poet: robbing this bank. *takes out guns* NOBODY MOVE!


hahah you gotta love Big Fish.

a superhuman is still a human; just someone really really super.

i told my parents that this year didn't feel like chinese new year.
that the excitement and mood is gone.
and that i'm not really looking forward to it much.


is it just me, or does this chinese new year celebration seem like another celebration, but nothing too impacting to be mentioned much? like helping my mom put in the clean and crisp notes into the ang baos, like eating bak kwa or like deciding what to wear for chinese new year, doesn't seem all that much fun or important anymore.

maybe it's just me.

i miss the times when i would get rather excited about chinese new year and the reunion dinner. i miss all that. now it just seems like the novelty has faded away. i just wish i could get it back for a while. then maybe i wouldn't feel so dull. it's as though now is the time to grow up, to board a train and reach the other side, only to find out it's not as happy-go-lucky as you thought it would be. and right now as 2009 is going on, my emotions ride on a roller-coaster. oh Jesus, more of You. less of me.


so my dad came into my room just now, talking to me real gently, trying to find out why i'm not happy with chinese new year this year. i got sulky and grumpy, i'll admit, and i just grunted my responses and all. then i complained that i didn't get to buy my proj materials because big bookshop was closed even though the signboard said otherwise. and i insistently wanted thick boards for my proj idea and we didn't have them at home. or so i thought.
my dad prodded around my short responses and figured i felt so moody because of my proj and so he said he'll find me boards and he went and dug around in the store room at 1am and got me a cardboard box. then he gave it to me and said,
"With daddy around, i'll help you, no worry. Now you can do your project already. So, are you feeling better for the chinese new year now?"




i wanted to cry, there and then.

spring cleaning!

to welcome the chinese new year, i shall clean up my blog!
which involves my neglected tagboard. :X
omg i've never actually done this b4. serves me right for not replying to people's messages.
compound interest thingy.
okay sooo i copy and paste from my tagboard and my replies are in italics, aye?

20 Jan 09, 21:40
IRWIN: woah woah woah, cool calander! - HEHE yeah i know, right! it's the bizbozzz. everyone should get one!

18 Jan 09, 23:14
.jyings: update,update! - updating in process, my dear! :D i'm still doing the blogskin lol

7 Jan 09, 02:00
RACHEL: i misss all of you threeee. - aww rae I MISS YOU too :( when are we finally gonna meet up! sunday? :X

6 Jan 09, 00:44
Sara: Omgggg, hahaha, that was fun! But I look like I'm on crack. haha - hahah yes it was fun! :) no i think it was the msg. and we all look like we're on crack heh

3 Jan 09, 23:59
Amanda Prabhu: hey felicia! hahaha how are you?? ive been hearing from mel but not from you!:( take care see ya soon - hey you! haha sorry lost contact with you for a while. i'm gr8, thanks! :) we should chat our facebook chats again!

3 Jan 09, 15:12
minl: lol. MAO. HAHAHA. - COURT OF ORDER. I HEREBY DECLARE MYSELF THE WINNER OF MAO. LOL

2 Jan 09, 15:35
chansee: HEYY HAHAHS let's play game of mao together again XD WAHHA! all the best in 2009! link me up eh XD - hey! sure thing i'll link you up soooon. hahah yes mao! see ya at dance :)

29 Dec 08, 17:37
minl: haha still waiting for pics man..... - i'm getting the usb thingy from doreen, hang on a wee bit longer babe!

25 Dec 08, 20:12
huimin: merry merry christmas! - MERRY CHRISTMAS <333 have a blessed year ahead!

23 Dec 08, 20:00
hannah: once again, great performance. haha sry for not giving you flowers man, but nonetheless its the appreciation that matters =] - haha yes it's the thought that counts and thanks for just being there to watch! love you! no i don't need flowers it's okay :)

16 Dec 08, 16:15
Monster: All the best with the dance! u go gal! - THANKS! :) and your w.e.a.r concert too. see you around, ced!


7 Dec 08, 22:10
rae: hey babe! really miss ya! (: i <3 u. link me, yeah? and see u real soon!! -hey girl, lunch lunch! haha and yes see you soon and linking up! :D


7 Dec 08, 19:47
HUIMIN: yes! when le en say's update felicia must updatee!!! -AND YOUR WISH IS MY COMMNAND *bows*

7 Dec 08, 19:23
roxanne: HIHI - hey roxanne! haha how've you been? catch up with you soon eh? :)

7 Dec 08, 00:44
LE EN: when le en says update, UPDATE! - YES, MADAM. UPDATED! :D

4 Dec 08, 18:24
madd: You are so funneh! haha! mid-life crisis. ZOMG was I with you the other time when we talked about mid-life crisis? - MADDY! haha yes i think it was with you? on the train! (is it?) lol anyway see you on thurs and g'luck for the projs! <3


4 Dec 08, 12:34
HUIMIN: *busy - hahah just join in next time ;)

2 Dec 08, 11:28
.jyings: hahaha awwwwww fellllllly. your posts are so cute! - hahah thanks jingying! <3

1 Dec 08, 23:49
russe: bloc party, baby! hahaha. anger issues. there is a gig on 6th dec. i just called you but you didnt answer. - oh yes, bloc party! haha how the gig recently anyway? and yes i may have anger issues haha but we're friends for a reason russel. :D


1 Dec 08, 22:05
HUIMIN: Hmmmm, because. You were buys taking PICTURES! - OH hahah woops, ah next time you interrupt us and join in the fun! :D

'sup dawg?

in an attempt to make my blog cooler, i added a k00l calendar.
now there's only 3 words to end this fluffy dope post;





i'll be back.


(yes i sound stupid. but know what?
i'd rather be lame but happy anyday
than to be cool but emo all the way)


word.



(okay i better stop here b4 someone shoots me)
PEACE, MAH FREIND!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PULL YOUE EAR!

here's what you get when you put jingying,



sara,



and me



together after eating cup noodles at west coast plaza.

result?

photobooth invasion right here right now
be warned.







































and there's about 124 more pics to go. hehe

drawn out

a startling question that mrs chng asked me when i went back for contemp dance;
'are you still writing, felicia?'

such a simple question, yet it started so much more profound thoughts in my head.
writing.
the good ol' joy in writing.
it brought so much glee back in sch when we had to write essays for eng and lit pieces.
the ability to express one's emotions on a piece of blank paper.. that piece of blank paper awaiting the pen ink to bring life onto the page.
it was almost an obsession, really.
how tempting it was to withdraw into my own world made out of blank canvas where i could just scribble anything text i choose.
why, it's a freedom of speech.
and you certainly are beginning to lose that kind of innocent freedom these days.


so on paper is where i let loose my thinkings, my feels, my wiles- where i could be myself without anyone calling me foolish.
i did rather well in sch for those subjects because i'd learn to tap into the mystical world of making things come alive by writing on paper. no, not drawing them out. but rather, by letting the reader experience her own scene while the writer helps stimulate the brain to imagine, to inspire, to initiate. every person's perception of a story may not be the same, even though they all read the same words. the power of their mind lets them create a visual illusion of how they wish to see things.
like a secret playground.
like a secret playground where you can just be yourself.



oh how i miss writing.
i guess the blog is the next best substitute for me to pen down my musings of dinosaurs and global warming and peach trees.
but alas, i lost practice and now my writing hinges have all gone rusty. will i ever be able to go back to my passion, or will things be different now that i haven't properly written for so long?
a year to be exact. a long and enduring year.
oh how things have changed within a span of three hundred and sixty five days short days.

three hundred and sixty five short days make one long year.
i wonder if four hundred and ninety wrongs make one right.




"are you still writing, felicia?"
"yes. yes, i am."






they're still waiting for you, felicia.

post script

I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfected.
Phil. 1: 5

















p.p.s: i'll be back blogging real soon.
p.p.p.s: siti and euminl, i'll send you the pics real soon too!

danzation '08

WAS A TOTAL BLAST!

it was really a gr8 time and gosh nra feels like one big family!
like whether we really know each other or not, makes no difference because we're in it together and we can smile and laugh and hug to encourage each other. it really is an awesome feeling.
now that's danzation's over, it feels kinda.. empty.
no dance training, no smoke machines, no more going to the studio-
aww i suddenly miss it all.
i miss dance. i miss nra.
i miss the feeling of dancing to an audience, that adrenaline rush i get.

it is true, what Ann and the seniors say, that we'd never have the same experience again.
but i'm sure the next production will be better than the last, because we'll keep moving to the next level.


and omg i just have to say that i love n329
thanks for coming down to watch the performance and i'm glad you all enjoyed it!
it means a lot to me that you guys were there (physically or spiritually lol)




thanks for not forgetting about me while i'm busy with dance practices and being lethargic and all and *sniff* you guys just *sniff* rock. and *blows nose* thanks for the love and *starts bawling* i wanna thank my mom and dad, and shawn and ezekiel and marquis. *i need more tissue!* you guys make my life so worth living. *third box of tissue coming up* there's so much i wanna tell everyone around me.. that those 3 words are not even enough to begin with! *shit my house is flooding*


but this is christmas (almost)
so in the festive season of thanksgiving,
here's to the people in my life.
to the friend i just made online 10 mins ago to my oldest BFFs;

I LOVE YOU.

i miss you and you and you and you

BFF <333



i'm 17!





supah belated pics, we went out during my bday and took some pics :)
i will not mourn my bday anymore but honestly, i don't even feel 17.
don't say that i don't even look 17, it's a bit sad after a while.
i mean i can joke about it ah, but for how long can i laugh along?


sigh i should stop if the joke has gone way too far, b4 it flies off into space and we can never take it back.
because space is just a cold empty vacuum filled with dark matter and dark energy and the occasional black-hole drama.

but with such a vast blank space, it's up to you to fill it up with pretty stars and faith and all the good things (like a half-eaten sandwich an astronaut accidentally lost 2 years ago)

or,
you can get sucked into a black-hole together with other particles and what not. perhaps you like the thrill of getting pulled in to some gravity. but remember to grab a handlebar to save yourself b4 it's too late. don't forget to remember.
lest you get stuck in the vortex of nothingness.




p.s: loads been going on, but like the pictures, you can tell that i'm slow to update so gimme some time. prolly after danzation i'll keep like spamming my blog with new posts cors i just have too much to tell!
all of my Father's goodness and wisdom- i want to share! soon, soon. real soon.

uh, how soon is soon?