once upon a time..

felicia and her friends, jocelyn renee doreen and hannah, went on a road trip to a far far away land.
through the rocky roads and cannibals' caves, they crossed raging oceans to make their way..
to a place where dreams come to life.
to a place where creativity is not limited.
to a place where the elders would whisper amongst themselves about the secret second home.

to sweden, more specifically.





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to IKEA, much more specifically.

this is how we made our way;

my boat ride for only 50 cents.



hannah the brave, her chosen transportation is a 50 cents horse ride. watch her giddy-up!



jocelyn pushed the trolley of meatballs through the storm. Even the waves love IKEA's meatballs.



and doreen loves them meatballs too! (i'll eat you up, so yum yum)
she used meatballs to travel across the ocean.



renee couldn't make it as she was preparing for her exam paper: theology- how to take over the world.
important stuff. so we wished her all the best and we continued with our voyage!



so with the guidance of our special all-seeing map,
we arrived on unknown territory.

we entered a strange and mystical land, and it was nothing like what the elders had described.

we saw...


a mirror greeted us at the entrance. and it had some sort of magic powers!
can you see what it did to us?





... it made our legs grow longerrrr!

and next, we saw...



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THROW, FELICIA FOR 15 BUCKAROOS.

i know, what kind of twisted place is this right?!

so because this place had weird forces beyong our comprehendsion,
hannah took it literally and guess what?



yeah you guessed it, she tried to throw me.



but the meatballs came in time to save us before we got too enchanted by the swedish land and whisked us off!
we stood at the mystical mirror for the last time.




and bid goodbye to the gr8 adventure.



enough flying meatballs to last us a lifetime :)
and renee aced her test to take over the world!



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happily ever after?


YOU BETCHA :D


(pictures credit to doreen :)

belated

Edge night was a blast!
The gr8 make-over indeed.
Everyone looked good :D
and the praise and worship was rockin;
and the message was even better.

on the bus ride, the bus driver drove like an f1 driver. it was like a rollacoaster on land. turn to the left, people flew to the left. turn to the right, people swung to the right. but the driver suddenly stopped the bus and got out of the bus, sat at the bus stop for a minute or two, before driving off again. i heard he did that because he couldn't tolerate the ruckus everyone was making on the bus.
poor guy.
he needs some kindness in this world.
someone to show him some love and patience.
i think i know just what he needs.
or rather, who he needs.

i should've invited him for edge!
or not, since he's old.
okay i know.

ASIA CONFERENCE!

okay i pray i may see him again on a bus ride soon.
no i'm not gonna keep taking bus 243 daily to try and bump into him.
i won;t ah. i've got better things to do..

or maybe i will.


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i walked into my first class of the semester and guess who i saw!
(no not the tooth fairy. and not goldilocks ah okay stop guessing lemme tell you now to end your misery)


JINGYING.

i know right. what are the odds?

lol okay so next day i had soc psych and guess who was in the lecture room too?


CALVIN PHUA.

haha this semester is turning out pretty cool, my lecturers are nice and they try to make lessons as interesting as possible :)


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my home's internet connection is setting up a protest,
i think it's tryna ask my dad for more pay or more electricity to eat or something that internet connections like but don't get enough of.
so while it's refusing to work, drinking electric coffee and laughing at our helplessness,
i'm blogging this down in sch- yay internet!- in art class.
we're watching a man sculpt the butt of the hulk on clay now.
tata!

p.s: all the best phua, for your audition! blow their socks off :D

this is an ad. find it.

lately, i've been trying to write things..
poems, songs, stories and even limericks!

the thing is,
i haven't been practicing my writing and english so i'm pretty horrible at it now.
and perhaps it's like riding a bike.. once you grasp the concept you can always ride back on whenever.
and with practice of course.
but i think i might have lost 'it'.
and i can't lose 'it' cors 'it' is a big part of my life!
not too sure what 'it' is at the moment but i'm sure i'll figure it out when 'it' comes back to me.
so what better way to find lost things by putting up an ad!


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*cue music and bright colours and all sort of advertising gimmicks.

i'm seeking to find 'it' again,
and whoever that helps me regain 'it' will have a reward!
you can have a strand of my purple hair..
you can have my white flower clip (once i find it, that is)
or i'd even hold marquis in place just so you can pet him!

so if you think you know how to find 'it' back, don't hesitate to call!
you know my number- 1900-123-FIND-IT ;)
(sorry it ain't toll-free)


*music fades softly into the background. so do all the annoying flashes of neon light and whatnot.


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God, inspire me again, like how you always have.

3 words :D

BANGKOK, HERE I COME!

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hahah i wrote shopping lists for everyone already, no worries.
time to unwind!

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p.s: thanks celia, i'm all better after they things you reminded me about. :)

what a friend we have in Jesus, all our something something to share.
oh what peace we often forfeit, all the something somthing to bear.
all because we do not carry, everything to the Lord in prayer!
i absolutely love this song.
(wait lemme google the correct lyrics lol my lyrics are kinda useless)

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What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations? Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden, cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge, take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do your friends despise, forsake you? Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He’ll take and shield you; you will find a solace there.

Blessed Savior, Thou hast promised Thou wilt all our burdens bear
May we ever, Lord, be bringing all to Thee in earnest prayer.
Soon in glory bright unclouded there will be no need for prayer
Rapture, praise and endless worship will be our sweet portion there.



<3, i feel so blessed.

i don't talk to myself! (much)

"those 3 words
are said too much
they're not enough."

ugh this feeling sucks.
the worse thing is that i know it's not true, that i'm not as ______ as it keeps telling me.
horrible insecurity, be gone.

and i thought i'd overcome it already but like what jingying said it doesn't completely go away just yet.
so i'm gonna keep on.
it's so near, it's near.


dear felicia,
please remember to never give up. always remember who you are to Him, not so much to people around you.
remember the dreams, and move with faith.
remember to drink more water in this humid weather.
remember to hold your concerts nightly in your room, the fans and dustmites are always waiting.
remember to pack my bags for my trip.
remember to bring my passport with me.
remember to not try and pluck marquis' fur to bring with you overseas. he just might get pissed.
remember to tell dad that you won't be home on tues night.
remember to alter the clothes so that they actually fit me.
remember to bake rainbow cupcakes for my family, friends and cg to show my love for their stomachs.
remember to remember!
and last thing, remember to throw the box of food beside you now unless you really want tiny 6-legged friends for company.

love,
felicia.

bank(er)?

when le en says update,
i update. :D


dance camp was the biz boz. i really had fun!
which was quite a surprise because i'm not a camp person and usually i don't like to go for camps but this camp, i didn't regret going to this camp at all!
but i just burnt and crashed right after the camp, i'ver never been this tired since mrs chng made us train like crazy.
speaking of which, i missed the teachers' day celebration thingy and i miss mrs chng!
maybe i should go back to tanglin soon.


oh!
i bet some of you don't know that i'm working!
what's more, it's in a bank omg.
haha here's the conversation i have with people;


Fel: 'hey i'm working now! 9-6 job omg.'
Friend: 'oh! really? where/as what'
Fel: 'in a bank!
Friend: 'a bank?! banker?! how'd you get the job?!'
Fel: ' i got in through.. *points to brain* this.'
Friend: 'yeah right.'
Fel: 'no really, im working as a banker cors im the only one in class who failed Olvls math. :D '

lol people automatically think i'm a banker cors i work in a bank!
i'd like them to think i'm thaat smart to be a banker but they don't have to know that i'm just an assistant to the bankers and i do labour task like sort mails and what not.



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last thing,
Miss Pettigrew Lives For A Day is a really good movie!
catch it if you can ;)


love you all!

spam!

here are some pictures,
cors we humans need to see to be.
(or su'm like that, i can't quite recall)
and so i can assure you that this is actually my blog.. not some bot created to keep people entertained.

(and i realized that my blog is supah wordy. so here're some of the recent pictures injected into the blog all at once)

































in other words, don't we love pictures!

to be or not to be.

i just had to post this quick, fairly frivolous entry about a bag i've been lusting for since it came out.
i have never, i repeat, NEVER ever gotten this crazy about a bag b4!
and i'm not a brands kinda girl. no, i don't have to wear dior or chanel or the works.
i usually just stand and admire from afar.
but eh-ma-gawd.
i got reminded of this bag,
the first ever bag that i had such a strong strong reaction to ever since i laid eyes on it.
it is gorgeous. seriously.

behold;

the Miu Miu Coffer Leather Handbag.




(yeah i know, it's totally out of season now. but i care not! i still like it! i would have liked it better if it wasn't miu miu so i can afford it better, alas.)
totally pretty-making!
and functional.
i sooo want this.
if i ever have this bag, i'd prolly bring it out like, everyday.
or maybe just buy a glass cabinet to display it.
both ways, i'm still putting the bad to good use, don't you agree!

i wish someone would get me the bag,
it's all i want for christmas!

okay maybe not all i want for chirstmas. but it is my top 3!
lol i should make a christmas list. yes, i WILL make a christmas list!
who cares if its only august now, i'm gonna make my list asap!
just not now though. now i just wanna look at my Miu Miu bag and gush over it.
i'm imagining what i can wear with it..
which is pretty much any clothes :D

but i don't think i can get it cors it's about USD1,500 excluding shipping (just for a leather bag, my mom would say) and it's sold out at net-a-porter :(
i've seen some like $300 or even a $60 one in sg! but i dare not trust it. what if there are horrible defects or if the leather grows fungi like chialynn's leather bracelet lol

okay, blah.
i'll end this rant now.

i'll post my christmas list real soon!
and!
haha i was camwhoring with my dad just now,
i'll put up pictures soonnnn
you can totally laugh your heart out to that.
well, at least i did.

i'm ususally not this crazy, just to have you know.
i'm not thaaat materialistic lol honest.
clothes and accessories are simply necessities, is all.
like how those 2 new dresses and that new top are necessities too.

gosh i want some new shoes.
like heels and dr martens!

let's go shopping!
who's with me?? :D






edit:
after calming down from my outburst,
i can calmly and rationally say that i do not need so much clothes and that i should save instead of spending every penny i have. and that i am really contented with all that i have and wish for nothing more. i'm going over to my corner to repent and reflect for a while. i mean, the physical things will pass away but the spiritual things will not.
i'm re-arranging my priorities now.
change my mindset. no matter how pretty that miu miu bag is. no matter how good it may look with my new dress. no matter how gorgeous the design of the bag is, the plaits, the pleats and the brown.
i can do this!
:D

when i was young;

in primary sch,
i remember watching my classmate in the canteen, during recess or lunch, and thinking how i wished i did that too.
he would always order his food, go to a table with his friends
and just b4 he takes his first bite,
he will bow his head,
hands clasped together,
and muttered a silent thanksgiving prayer.
(something that we often know as 'saying Grace')

now back then,
no one else did this but him.
not even myself, when i knew i should have done so- seeing as i was a christian.
but i never had the courage.
i was afraid my friends would think me weird, or sometimes i simply forgot.
and i did not give my thanks b4 every meal for quite a while..
until this image of my classmate with his eyes closed, thanking the Almighty Father that he had another meal to partake entered my mind.

so to this day,
just b4 i take my first bite,
i will remember this classmate and
i will bow my head,
hands clasped together,
and mutter a silent thanksgiving prayer.


he motivated me.
he's the kind of example i wanna be.

bubbles, don't burst them.

there's a kingfisher in my estate!

i was walking out to the side gate just now to pass the cam to rae,
when i suddenly noticed the trees, flowers, everthing about my surroundings!
i mean, i HAVE noticed the lovely scenery around me for what, 7 years?
but today, everything looked extra beautiful and ethereal in the morning sunlight.
or maybe it's just 'cause i'm real happy after two nights of FOP.

anyhooo, as i was saying,
there's a kingfisher in my estate!
i don't know about you but like i rarely see kingfishers anywhere else.
and there was this big blue pretty kingfisher sitting on the rails of the pond.
it's like a mini eco-system in here!
the kingfishers (yeah i saw two of them) would eat the fishes in the pond, the residents will feed the fishes and tortises with bread and the stray birds will eat the crumbs!

there are yellow colored birds flying around too, with pretty butterflies you can see fluttering around the brightly colored flowers. there are lotsa green grass areas like small fields and this place just reminds me of botanic gardens.
maybe even better, since there's a swimming pool here with a local mart and security guards who patrol now and then.
and almost everyone knows each other!
the maids would meet in the afternoon, while walking the dogs, and just chit-chat their time away. as the dogs lie down lazily, looking at each other.
sadly, marquis is too shy to be with the other dogs so my maid won't really associate with the other maids much.
yes, marquis is very shy. he's not an angry man-eating growling unfriendly monster.
you should see the small yapping dogs who bark shrilly when they see him.
AS I WAS SAYING,
this place is like a small community!
so peaceful, and tranquil.
like a village!
even the cleaners are kind people.
honestly, it's perfect as it is :)
i don't think i'd change one bit of it.




now all we need are traffic lights to make this place a town.
and maybe a celebrity neighbour to move in and up the status of this town.
and maybe a shopping mall
with shops like f21, pull and bear, topshop and wetseal!
and a small polytechnic maybe. so i need not travel elsewhere.
shop, study. shop, study. swim, shop, study.
and if all my bestfriends moved into the estate..
and if hot guys moved in too.
why not even open up a cityharvest church here as well!

this place will be bursting with happy and fulfilled people.


okay fine, maybe only me.

short one.

zzzz



it's 1.36am now, but i'm only half-way done for my photography.
and there's a written test for it tmrw!
i'm super tak-glam now. rushing my work while i doze off now and then.
but! i just had to come up here to share something.
something i've taken for granted so many times, again and again.
today, my eyes were opened, to see the amazing people in my life.
i never really saw what i had in front of me..
but i do now.



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thank you God, for such amazing friends.

watch out!

I am allergic to kiwis.

i found out when i had kiwis at harbourfront, and then my mouth got itchy, then my throat, then my stomach. and i had a tummy ache the whole time after. it was Horrible, to say the least.



so! yesterday after sch, i met my mum up to buy some cloth material for me to start making actual dresses (and not just slipshot skirts and whatnot)!
i bought the cutest pattern, of a blue apples and green pears.
thing is,
i don't really know what type of dress i should make.
i'm spoilt for choices.
but the pattern of the cloth is so lovely, all i know is that i've to make a dress that's worthy.
gosh, i'm excited.
this would be my first time making my own dress!
soon i'll have my own store.. my own label.. i could even start making perfumes like sarah jessica parker! :D

and after BS i took the train and then the bus home with my mum.
but at the bus stop, there were people smoking and now not only people who smoke will die sooner,
because all of a sudden my nose started getting real itchy.
and so did my throat.
it felt soo damn uncomfortable...





They must've made a new flavour for cigarettes.
Kiwis.

moments i captured

for my photo assignment;

and candies for your eyes.
well my photog skills ain't that good, but i'm improving (i hope)
had fun with the shoots, under the scorching sun.
but hey, you know what they say.
the friends who perspire together stays together?





















(the two pics of me was taken by rae :)
rae's the pretty model, russe's the skate model, malay guy's unknown model.


cheers!








p.s: the colours in the picture don't come off as nicely as it does on my iphoto i don't know why. maybe it's nicer if you like view it full page or su'm.

it's mah style.

greetings earthlings.

i'm feeling rather relaxed in schl now because (almost) all of my assignment's been completed and submitted! but what goes on after doesn't quite give me a rush as the process of submitting my work.
here's why:

The vicious cycle of Poly life (or maybe just my sch life)
step 1) Pay attention in class/lecture.
step 2) Teacher warns you about the upcoming assignment, 3 weeks before hand.
step 3) So you try to pay attention in class so you'd know how to do the assignment well.
step 4) Well, you tried. you really tried.
step 5) May fail to focus and so lose the momentum. Hence, lose some important details about the assignment that's now due in *gasp* 1 week.
step 6) As reality sets in that you've to hand it up within 120 hours, you struggle and start praying for wisdom.
step 7) Just 10 hours before submission, manage to do quite a good(?) job despite the rushed conditions.
step 8) Think that maybe you just can work under pressure after all. Must be the prayers.
step 9) Submit the work on the deadline, feel the rush and celebrate the sense of achievement.
step 10) Feel rather relaxed in sch because (almost) all of the assignment's been completed and submitted. Then realize that it'll start all over again from step 1.


yeah, that's totally and honestly how it works for me.
well i;m not exactly proud of the way i'm doing it,
so i've taken it into account and i've made up a plan on how to improve!
wanna see? ;)









The new and improved vicious cycle of Poly life.

step 1) Pay attention in class/lecture.
step 2) Teacher warns you about the upcoming assignment, 3 weeks before hand.
step 3) So you try to pay attention in class so you'd know how to do the assignment well.
step 4) Buy sour sweets to stay awake in class. Or i should ask renee, hannah, doreen and jocelyn to slap me.
step 5) May fail to focus but go home to catch up on lecture notes. Thank God for MEL's sharing system.
step 6) Within 120 hours of submission, you have a good idea on what you want to do and how it will turn out.
step 7) Pray and seek his wisdom, and manage to finish all with good time.
step 8) Know that you don't have to work under pressure after all.
step 9) Submit the work on the deadline, feel the rush and celebrate the sense of achievement.
step 10) Feel rather relaxed in sch because (almost) all of the assignment's been completed and submitted. Then realize that it'll start all over again from step 1. And this time i won't be dreading it.


okay i think i shall start like... now!
when i see my friends in sch imma ask them to equip themselves with ways and means to keep me focused in class.
but i'll draw the line at red ants. and pulling of hair. and painful pinches. and pepper spray.
okay, definitely no pepper spray.
i mean, i only want to stay awake. not blind myself.

how hard can it be right?




hahah i have faith :D
& if faith can move the mountains,
it can surely keep me awake!




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i love you Jesus, deep down in my heart.
talk about deep deep down down deep down in my heart <3

make some sense

i'm back with updates.
as le en reminded me;
my blog's dead.
now's time to feed it some food again.
(sorry le en, i took so long to post up and had to make you wait lol love ya :)
& sorry it hasn't been blogging recently.
've been pretty busy this hols.
i think it's the busiest i've ever been on a sch holiday!
on normal hols, i'd just slack and decompose at home, go out shopping/movie-ing, go for dance classes and then finally when my hols are ending, i will rush out all my homework stuff. sometimes i'll be so bored i wished the hols would just end already.
truth's like that for some of us, no? ;)

but this hols!
the ALIVE program, oh boy, am i really alive.
it has been nothing but a fun and awesome experience with N329 and this time, E443 too :D
actually, awesome just doesn't describe it.
triproawecreation's more like it.
i just created this new word. lemme break it down for ya:

tri- the first part of triumph.
pro- favouring.
awe- from awesome and wonder.
creation- from recreation. the thrill and excitement at an activity.
so, triproawecreation can be used to describe awesome, but awesome with a victory and the thrill of what just happened.
:D





anyway,
i've been thinking,
(don't i always think lol)
that no matter how fast you move on to the future,
the past will always catch up with you- sooner or later.
the past meaning people whom you lost contact with, or people whom you'll never expect to come back from your memories. and no, not spirits!
i don't really know why..
but it hit me one day,
that actually God will send the people from your past (be it your old sch friends, distant relatives.. anyone whom you havent spoken to in a while) to you as a last chance to either catch up with them and get them back into your life..
or they slip away- as abruptly as how they entered back into your life.
so i guess it's really our choice.
whether we want them back into our lives again.. the different paths we'd take.
afterall,


as Josh said, 'What is love without free will, without the chance to make our own decisions?'


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(i don't need to prove myself)
[what's in me- doesn't matter if You're the only one who sees]
{after all, it's all for You, no one else}

`i know that You know it,
and that's more than enough.

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i placed the brackets in there to make it more fanciful lol to prettify my post.
shucks it ain't working though.
ah well.
(at least it's not emo...
'cors Shakespeare hates your emo poems hahaha)



it's more than enough :)

okay, i know i said life's been awesome and brilliant and i'm bubbly with happiness.
BUT

after that..
let's just say life isn't a bed of roses.

i'm stressing myself out with my photog assignment, some frustrations, my overdued sketchbook and second story draft.
and when do i have to submit them?

prolly in a years time?

how about 6 months time?

or.... 3 months time?

ah, 1 months' time ain't too bad.

oh perhaps i can rush it in 2 weeks.

i wish.
i really really wish.
like, really really really really.

'cause i procastinated and all (yeah it's kinda my fault that i'm in this hot boiling tomato soup-yeah i'm the main course)
so now i'm only left with

12 frickin' hours.

i was freaking out initially, but i'm feeling much more calm now. (thanks again jyings)

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okay i sense that miracles are gonna happen.





through my brokenness i can be an example.
now all i gotta do is survive the broken-ing.

so i haven't been blogging here,
doesn't been i haven't been blogging else where...

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check www.sofelicious.wordpress.com out! :D
it's the best damn thing your eyes have ever seen.

okay not the beeeest, but still good LAH
i'm high right now, i think my maid slipped coke into my drink, and gosh when i'm high the whole world seems to be suchhh a nicer place than the world i live in normally.
seriously.
strangers will smile to me when i pass them on the streets..
okay prolly cors i'm humming away and smiling up at them too.

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life's been fab recently.
the only way it can get better is if i can pass my art lol
&!
maybe complete my shopping list
&!
maybe if i can watch ironman.

other than that,
i'm real contented.
:D

'kayyy well gtg i'm going for cgd soon yay!

music makes me lose control

I can do this.
I am so ready.
I am a confident dancer who can work it.
oh yeah, I'm ready to bring it on!

you must be thinking that i'm like mojo-crapping here but i'm not, FYI, i'm still very sane :D (last time i checked heh)
it's the nra auditions today and here goes nothing!
yesterday, booked a studio with renee, evan and rae to practice some moves in case it was needed today.
haven't danced in a long time, so was feeling kinda rusty but after some time, the kinks got kinked away!
rae was awesome, to say the least.
she helped me do an impromptu dance chereo and was patiently teaching it to me.
then, she helped renee and evan with their dance steps too.
if anyone was to have a successful future in dance,
it'll definitely be rae.

cors after we met up again at central mall,
we practiced the set of moves she gave and we hid in the handicap toilet (lol)
to get things right.
and like if things didn't look right, she could change and remember the moves..
just like *snaps finger* that!

so i wanna give a big shout-out to my dear rachel:
thanks for patiently teaching it, and i never once saw you get impatient or frustrated!
i really really appreciate the help, even though its not your audition but you still did your best, and i'll try my bestest for today!
i'll make God, you, jingying, sara, zhi hao and all you who encouraged me, proud!

i'm so hyped up for later.
we can so do this, renee :)

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i'll be back with good news!



edit: and i AM back with good news!
i got in NRA!!
yay!
but im kinda exhausted now so my brain's still processing this..
my excitement will commence tmrw.
be prepared for me suddenly breaking out into a dance or me suddenly jumping up and down in joy.

whoooooooo :D

and this is how we deal when classes end 3 1/2 hours earlier :D

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ooh i'm not dead, after all!

i'm actually alive & am back to blog!

see, the most recent pic, of us eating the huge 'ban-li' watermelon thing! yeah we all loved it as you can see from zhi hao's face :D

at the airport! 

peace to the power of two, yo.

unraveled!

my newest haircut *drum rolls, please*

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okay i'd better stop before you judge my new hairstyle biased-ly.

tadah!

from the past...

i found this from long time ago, i miss jia en and sara :(

to the present again!

we were checking out the photobooth of my mac haha
the ties that bind, blood's thicker than water :)

b4 cg, with amelia & russel- POP ART lol

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yeah i've finally cut my long hair short, short.
and like i've finally decided to blog & post up pics of my new haircut (finally lol) ,

thanks to the encouragement of my only two readers, me & le en.

even though they are the only ones who will read my blog, it still is heart-warming to know they read it. 

even if it's just two rockin' supporters.

i mean, without power or supporters, what use will all your mad rantings be?

i watched a stupid but hilarious movie and a top government official said;

"of course i'm mad. it's only good to be mad with power. have you ever tried being mad without power? no one listens to you."

i hope you get the picture.

cors if you don't, my post has plenty of pictures for you hehe

post script!

murphy's law is a very very interesting theory made up by someone.

yet, it seems strangely true at times.

so basically the law is "whatever can go wrong, WILL go wrong"

ever had a bad horrigible day that just kept getting worse and it never seemed to end?

yeah, it may be due to murphy's law.

but some argue that its just the way we look at life,

like if we treat it negatively- our days feel like hell on earth.

but if we looked at life with a positive attitude- our days are like heaven on earth.

interesting eh. how life is. 

so like, which is true?

does this law even exist?!

if so, then how do i prevent my days to go wrong wrong, maybe there's a counter-curse thingy?!?! 

& like those annoying gimmick used to make you come back to my blog again, i shall end with a..........

to be continued ;)

barbies are pretty

well we're only into feb and so many things have happened already.
this is gonna be one rollercoaster-ferriswheel-cottoncandy-bumpercars-evilclowns-dancingacobats wacky kinda year.
i can feel it.
:D

as i was saying, lotsa stuff've been going on..
boy, our lives could be like a 4.5star-rating sitcom.
like the OC- but not as scandalous.
like Gossip Girl- but not as wild.
like the Simpsons- but not as dense.
like Grey's Anatomy-but not so many deaths.
like Heroes- except we don't have superhuman powers.

anyway.
the life of holidays is suiting me well.
i've gained weight, as i'd like to think, and i've widen my movie scope
and rose the standards of a slacker
pretty productive hols, dontcha think?

ugh who am i kidding.
yes i'm actually wasting my life away..
i now understand whythey say time is of the essence.
but how to grasp it and make the most out of it?
shopping's spending money, movie's spending time, lazing around's spending precious time.
maybe i should go join a course at some centre.
like, dress-making or vocal lessons.

I bet you didn't know
that i've always had a secret desire to be a rockstar.
whooo truth's out.
yes, a cool rockin' rock star who rocks.
but it's the fear of failing that holds me back
i mean, i practically have a concert every night in my shower.
but i lack the guts to do so in front of actual breathing human beings.
ah well, maybe i'll try it one day and hopefully no one sniggers and pushes me offstage. or i could just keep up the night concerts in my room, til' i grow old and sing my husband to sleep.
even fish have guts, but i don't.

you think: sucks to be felicia huh?

i say: not everyone's gr8est fans are dusty barbie dolls. i bet yours are those tiny black ants. And they're not even prettttyyy.

since 1st jan..

new year, new things.
new friends to make, new modules to study for.
new clothes, new hair.
&
new things you discover about yourself.

i came to a sudden realization that i hum whenever i'm upset.
like whenever there's this hurting silence,
i hum.
any tune, any song.
i just.. hum.
kinda strange huh.
i guess its my way of releasing tension
like how some people count to ten b4 they start to get mad?
yeah.

of course if you see me smiling and we just had a happy chat where i suddenly break off to hum- uh no its not the mood swings.
it's probably cors its a happy hum tune or su'm.
(did i just say happy hum tune?!?)

i am so weird.
you can tell my emotions by my hums.
like a.....














...bee. zzzzz

AND amelia brought sudden revelation to me that i bite my lips nervously when i've say something that i'm totally unprepared for.

so like i say, every new year sheds some more light unto yourself.


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got back my Os result and surprise surprise,
i did better then i thought i would.
now the dilema is which course to choose.

i know, i know i wanted soo so much to et into mass comm at first.
but now im having second thoughts.

howwww?

lemme go tell my troubles to God.

He always knows what to do.

the year 2008

thus i have progressed on,
growing a year older and wiser,
into another episode of my life where new experiences will overwhelm me-
and as i learn how to overcome them.
i have now turned into the age of 17.

in short,
i am like 17 already omg.
how can i be 17?
i don't even look 17.
seriously.
at the restaurant, most of the customers would be like:
"ooh how cute, a young girl."

or,
"don't you have school?"

or,
"sorry my friend and i have this bet, how old are you?"
to which i would dutifully reply "16"
and then the guy would laugh and exclaim "yes i won!"
to which i would feel the sudden strong urge to stuff the water jug over his head,
and then laugh loudly and run away.
(not very 16 yr old ish behaviour, i know)

honestly,
it is kinda sick to bet about a girl's age.
and you may have won the bet,
but you have deflated my ego.
:(

so i have decided;
next time another curious smart-ass comes asking for my age in disbelief,
i would tell them humbly.

"i am a 12 years old child prodigy, that's why.
now.
eat your heart out :) "

it's easy to feel like you're all alone
to feel like nobody knows
the great that you are,
the good that's inside you,
is trying so hard to break through.

people's worse fear isn't death;
though it seems like it.
no, it's not the great unknown too.
but it's the fear of being gone from people's memories.
no one remembers you and your presence on earth
like you didn't make much of a difference anyway.
yes people like to be heard.

but i know that He recognises me for who i am
& it deeply comforts me so so much.

sometimes you start feeling insignificant,
feeling like you're left out of the world's busy schedule
as people around you whirlwind about their own activities.
when someone suddenly recognises you.
just that little action of appreciating-
warms your cold heart a little

and then maybe, just maybe
you're not forgotten afterall.

yowsa

greetings here all the way from thailand, hua hin :)

yeah it IS kinda weird to see my last post & me in sg and then the next thing you know,
i'm blogging from thailand.
sorry this blog's been poorly managed.
please have mercy
for i have been so busy..
and using the internet doesn't really appeal to me that much- as it used to.

okay so to update ya!
here i am in thailand in this lovely small town of hua hin,
staying in this LOVELY villa-resort place where its' famous for its spa and services.
not to mention that it's 5 stars, so yeah you pretty much get the lovely picture :)

my mom and i are here on account of her having some end-year meeting thing and its held here so i tagged along :D
then are the meetings are over, we'll move to bangkok and stay there forever and shop til the death.

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no sorry i'm just kidding.
my sense of humour is currently asleep as its 11.27pm sg time now
and i had less then my normal 10 hrs of sleep so pardon this SOHF (sense of humour failure),
it's just regrettably inevitable.

we'll move to bangkok to have a shopping spree and will be back on sunday!
i kinda miss sg already..
but living life in this resort is GR8.
i could get used to this.
i sooo could.

oh as the hotel staff was showing my mom around the meeting venues and stuff like that,
she took us for lunch at their poolside restaurant and blah blah we had their famous glutinous rice with mangoes for dessert.
and whoever who gets to eat the last piece of mango from the plate will, like, meet their love of their life/ boyf/ girf/ crush/ etc..
or so the saying goes.
it's a good thing i'm 25okm away from sg so you can't see me blush scarlet upon hearing that.
i know i'm 16 now and i'm supposed to be all mature and not blush whenever i think of it but i can't really help it.
ugh i've flown so far away and yet i still think about it.
jingying IS right, for the first time, (or the second.. or the third.. or..)
i've got it bad.
dang it i'm here to enjoy and de-stress myself in this eden-look alike!
i did not pay hundreds to live in a posh resort with a private beach that serves excellent food to think about someone who probably doesn't even remember my name.
so stop it!
*slaps myself*

on to this place,
it's totally pretty-making!
it is decided.
i shall elope here and make this place my secret escape.
well, it's not much of a secret now that you know but still.
i shall change my name and cut my hair short and then dye it in caramel-honey shades of brown.

... thinking about it,
i'm not so sure i can live in this city.
i mean the resort's fabulous.
but the city is still kinda in the poverty state with loads of flies.
maybe next time.
when i win the lottery of a million mosquito coils :)

anyway i'm eating leftover pizza, wathcing heroes season2.
btw gossip girl is addictive!

oh oh and i'm working!
haha yes i can see the cogs working in your brain, trying to figure it out.
well i shall tell you and put a stop to your misery.
i'm working as a waitress in this italian restaurant.
i haven't broken any cups or plates yet,
so, so far so good :D

okay that's all for the update and i'll blog again when i can.
no promises it'll be soon though.

sawadika

look what the cat dragged in

well look what i got myself into again
monday afternoon i went to see this eye specialist who told me i had cornea abrasions, they hurt like hell btw, and allergies so i'm gonna be in need of some heavy eye drop medication thing thing.
doc gave me a patch to wear til today and i'm gonna see him again later to have coffee and talk about the latest movies.
in all seriousness, i'm getting my patch down today and i should be a-okay soon!
this eye patch has really gotten alot of people staring..
they think i'm some ah lian who got herself socked in the eye for speaking very bad english.
the cheek.
well, any publicity is good publicity, i guess

of course when i'm rich and famous they'd better think otherwise muahaha


i was trying to be happy despite my circumstances

ahh lemme wallow in my self pity for a while.

& its so sad that i can't even cry at myself because the doctor said the tears would wash the meds away.

yeah i think i'd make a good pirate next time.

ahoy mateys!

hope you had a good laugh at my misery now

at least someone's happy

well i'm gonna get some lunch and then it's off to the cold air-conditioned eye specialist!

p.s:

i can't imagine how my eye doc can stand to be an eye speacialist.

like, seeing people with eye infections and eye sores and what nots aren't bad enough.

i scare myself everytime i look in the mirror at my eye sores.

but then again, if there weren't doctors like him,

i would have never been properly taken care of.

like i said, i am contradictionary.

you still have to love me *evil laugh*