oh man.
today has been such an emotional day.
so many people crying.
so many tragedies.
life can be so cruel somtimes.
well, most fo the time.

today, had lessons and all..
but my eyes hurt too much to really pay attention.
so.. another school day wasted. gone down the drain.
blocked outta my head. mann. home-schooling sounds so good now.
anyways, after school
was supposed to have math remadial but ms portia cancelled it due to the the night rehearsal today, tonight.
which means i had 3 hours to roam around school and kill precious time.
sounds super huh?
'cept it isn't as fun when you have nothing much to do..
just hung around the benches..
and finallay.
time to change into our dance stuff AND clip all our fringes.
'not a single strand of baby hair should be loose or else..'-said you-know-who.
and then we had to wax/gel up our hair just to keep everything intact or it'll be the horrible wayang again. stuff and bother.
so we changed. even applied make-up for the benefit of saving HEr time. BUT< BUT< BUT, mrs chng saw and told us to wash it off!
man. and it was like long-lasting makeup so we scrubbed our eyes out.
and now my eyes all blurred and red-ish and eye-bagish.
then after all the clipping up of hair, changing into outfits and putting some flower into our hair, it was time to face the horror
with me&my forehead against the world.
ate dinner.. blah blah.
and it was.. show time!
roy took a vid of us and i must admit, we looked good.
hahas.
im not boasting here.. but our lines were straight and the movements were mostly together. watch the vid with your own eyes to find out if we really did it alright. i think roy's gonna burn a disc for us.. [thnkx]
went to ginza for supper-cum-dinner-cum-snack.
mac was closing then. lol.
talked awhile before leaving.

oh!
i didnt get the cut yet. but im still so freaked.
i was like clinging on to the arm and wouldn't let go.
esp at the lift. lol
im traumatised for life.
don't know why i got all scared on it..
i ususally wanted to hear more of 'em[so agrees ahh-ma]
hmmm. mel thinks im going depressed. lol
im not. im perfectly.. alright.

to my girls; hey'all. cheer up alright? life is like that sometimes. [i can somehow understand what you're feeling]and God does exist. and he is the one who helps you and gives you the strength to go on living happily afterall. and for the record, im not entering depression mode anytime ever. but, heyy. i hope everything's fine with you all too. about what happened last night, please dont attempt it again. i'll keep supporting you, in the meantime, don't give up. no matter what, im sure[100% positive] that you'll have me and all your dear friends. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE ADVICE GIVEN AND ALL THE HELP WHEN I WAS DOWN. (: (: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE HELP AND SUPPORT AND LOVE (: (: i love you girls forever.

-life's been a rollercoaster for me recently.
cos of soo much things happening all at the same time.
such emotional ones to.