if you're happy, i'm happy :)

it's that simple.

for me, at least.

Summary of the week!

Genting with the family!

crazy swing ride at the theme park.

haha @ shawn

G.mama in da house!

crazy ticklish skin-eating fish! i kept laughing for 9 mins, and for 1 min i finally stayed still and time was up. -.-

*

iGotTalent; iFlow! :D

vivid;

I'm in a pool of black water. I look around me and I'm surrounded by it.

Black, dirty water. Full of dead things.

The water's too cold, and I can't breathe. I can't breathe.

It's pulling me down, into the abyss of black nothings.

I struggle, and kick and push and tread to stay up but it's almost useless.

I'm growing tired and I'm freezing and I think my legs have stopped moving.

How deep will I go? 

Is there a bottom to this or will I keep sinking, sinking, sinking and fade into black.

Suddenly, a hand reaches out and with all my might, I push myself forward to grab it.

That strong hand is effortlessly pulling me out.

Up, up and up. 

And just like that, I'm out of the water.

I'm.. above.

I'm in a white space now, so white and so pure.

Standing in front of me is my rescuer.

I can't see his face, but I know who he is. 

Like a child would know their father, I know who he is. 

A gentle breeze washes over my body and blows away the remaining rancid black water off my skin.

I've never been so clean.

He sits down and I'm filled with such thanksgiving and glee that I begin to express myself in dancing and in singing. 

I twirl around him, I sing boldly.. And all that I'm focusing on is the smile on his face.

That smile..

It makes me want to keep pleasing him, to keep that beautiful smile on his face.

And so I dance on and sing on as he watches. His eyes never leaving me.

I'm in peace, I'm in joy, I'm liberated :) 

I think I'll go to boston.

I think I'll go to boston.. I think I'll start a new life.. Oh yeah..

Boston.. Where no one knows my name...

No I'm not moving to boston ah, I'm leaving for genting! And somehow the song just came to me. Nice yet sad song. Bittersweet, just like life itself :)

And to think that after I say life is bittersweet, I can still smile digitally. Sadistic. 

But see, people tend to notice only the bitter and not the sweet, most of the time! I'm no exception. However, I've also come to realize that the sweet shall overpower the bitter and that's why the word bittersweet is written like that. 

Bitter first, then sweet. 

So things may seem bitter now, but don't forget that the sweet is on it's way!

I'm going to genting with my bros and mom and it'd be a gr8 getaway :D

Okay though this trip is at an inconvenient time (I'll be missing out on so much!) but I reckon it's my much needed break from the hectic (a bit?) lifestyle I've been having.

And I need the sleep because lately I either can't go to sleep because of dreams or I sleep soundly.. for like 4 hours?

It's not enough, I'm telling you!

Doctor say teenagers must get at least 10 hours of sleep, am I right?

So next time if I'm late for sch, I'll tell my lecturer it's doctor's orders for me to sleep 10 hours and I happen to sleep at 1 am so I can only wake up at 11 am that's why I'm late for the 9 am class but it's the doctor's orders and for my health! And the doctor never specified what time I should sleep so.. 

*looks away and whistles*

*wait I can't whistle*

*but you get what I mean*

Oh dear Lord Almighty, ezekiel is disturbing my mom with his irritating questions about his passport. I'm off to save my poor mom from all that misery. How I can tolerate being in another country with ezekiel is beyond me but then it's love, it must be. And love is mysterious.

(And rather blind,

sometimes. lol)

Jocelyn day, tomorrow!

Felicia Chia

12:44 AM

it's this cool restaurant where they serve seafood stuff

Jocelyn!

12:44 AM

but. i would like them to slice my fish up

Felicia Chia

12:44 AM

think western food

Jocelyn!

12:44 AM

haha

Felicia Chia

12:44 AM

pampered kid!

hahah

i slice for you

i bring knife

Jocelyn!

12:44 AM

HAHAHA

thank you

 

Felicia Chia

12:45 AM

your birthday cake

hehe

Jocelyn!

12:45 AM

oh wow!

Felicia Chia

12:45 AM

put candle too

Jocelyn!

12:45 AM

i have a cake ?

heheheheehehehehe

Felicia Chia

12:45 AM

ya, the sliced fish 

LOL

P.S *HAPPY BIRTHDAY AWESOME CAROL*

DANCE CAMP DANCE CAMP DANCE CAMP 

YAY

ugh I keep sneezing. hope sleep will do my nose some good.

will be gone for (only) 2 days!

don't miss me!

Oh wait, too late..

I think I can already feel it.

Correction!

I think I can already sneeze it.

Life is but a paradox

When I was 16, everyone told me not to be in a hurry to grow up, but to enjoy my growing years.

Now I'm 18 and suddenly everyone's asking me to think about a job and the future.

I'm stuck. I have so many hopes and dreams about my future.. I'd spent 2 years daydreaming and now it's suddenly time to wake up and actually make it a reality. Too fast, way too fast.

I don't know what to do.

Graphic designer/ script writer/ fashion journalist/ magazine illustrator/ sew crocodile bags.

Right, I take it back. I'm not gonna sew crocodile bags. 

I wish there was an in-between job that combined all my talents into that one specific job.

A job that allows me to write and design, a job related to fashion, a job that lets me get hands-on experience. 

Come to think of it, I wouldn't mind working in the post production part of a movie either. 

Oh gr8. I wish I could do 'em all.

Life is ironic in so many ways.

1. When you are young, you can't wait to grow up. But when you're grown up, you wished you were young again.
2. The grass seems greener on the other side but once you get to the other side, you realized it's green with harmful fertilizers anyway.
3. You always want what you can't have.
4. The people mind, don't matter. And the people that don't mind, matter.

And the list could just go on.. 

Life is but a paradox 

&

Paradox is but a life. 

P.S: I had wanted to experiment with film cameras and so I bought a holga and started snapping away but soon after I stopped. This picture was in my last row of pictures taken. It's been what, 6-7 months since I last picked up my holga? My (short) attention span is alarming, tsk. 

(re)Fresh My Life

You know you need to sort out your life when your inbox reaches a steady amount of 2367 unread mails.  

Uh-huh. 

But this;

"Today, I was in the fitting room at Forever 21. I looked in the mirror, worrying that the dress I had on made me look fat. To the right of the mirror, someone wrote 'Don't worry. You're beautiful. :)' It absolutely made my day!"

It sure gives me hope. 

Why FML when you have GMH :D

Of long bus rides, bak ku teh, shopping at jusco, yummy seafood feast, sunset in kelong, danga bay, nostalgic carousel rides, killer fun bumper cars

yesterday was a good day :) 

(Y) 

It's been Feeenomenal.

When you have a dream, 

faith will come through.

And when you have the faith, 

your dream will come true. :)

" Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?  "

Open up my eyes, I pray. Open up my eyes.

I've been blessed!

9)

You know,

when I was a little girl, I didn't get it.

Once, my parent's friends came over to over house for a visit and I'd just come back from PE class and was all dirty with mud and when the friends saw me, they actually went: 'What a pretty girl!'

I was confused and so I ran into my room and stood at the mirror, analyzing myself.

I looked at my face, my nose my eyes my lips and I tilted my head to see if I was indeed pretty. I remember looking into the mirror and then thinking 'How do you define pretty?' 

I squinted my eyes here and there and looked at my PE clothes. I wasn't pretty, not in that too-loose attire. I was skinny. Hm. I looked back at my face again. My bangs were too short and my eyes a little too big.. I saw some eye bags and well, I didn't think I was pretty. 

I then remember myself going 'Maybe I'm pretty like they said, even if I don't see it.'

But now looking back at that peculiar memory, I realize that people can say pretty much anything.. just because.

Yes, just because.

Just because it sounds nice.

Just because it's only polite to say it.

Just because they want you to be happy.

Just because. 

I think my parent's friend said that comment last time just because it was the right thing to say as my parents invited them to our house. 

See how easy peoples' words flow out of their mouths? 

It's so easy.. too easy sometimes. That makes you really wonder if the words mean anything at all.

Sometimes we make empty promises, sometimes we says things to make things look big, sometimes we say one thing and do another. After all, words are free, aren't they?

I've come to realize, after 17 years of maturing and exploring, that words aren't all that. 

Not us human words, anyway.

But I know that there is One word we can always rely on, we can always trust in. Those words aren't empty promises, they come true, just like He said they would. Those words aren't for talking big, because nothing is impossible for Him. Those words, when said, you can always expect and know that you wouldn't be disappointed. 

So when the One who says these words says: 'Don't be in a hurry. In due time, in due time.'

I stop, ponder and listen.   

How true, I subconsciously go for the end product and I rush through the process that I miss out certain important things. I just want to get the part where His vision has led me to. But hearing those words, I lean back and start to trust Him that really in due time, in due time- it will come to pass. 

After 17 years of maturing and exploring, I know that it will come to pass. :)

The only question is, when? Okay okay, don't hurry. I won't hurry. Nope. Nobody's hurrying. I'm cool. I'm cool. 

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*whispers* When ah?

Hold on, baby you're losing it 

The water's high, you're jumping into it

and letting go 

and no one knows

That you cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might 

   not

      be 

            the  golden  one 

And you're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone.

I spy with my eye, some UN-CUT DIY

So i took a pair of scissors and started snipping away the collar of my old sch uniform! I saw someone just wearing a collar and then a tie and then a tank top and wow that look was cool (i think it was britney in her 'me against the music' video? lol!) so i've been wanting to get my own collar for a long time, it's just that procrastination keeps taking me over.

Anyway i overcame my procrastination and started up some DIY!

The scissors is like the solution for everything! Seriouslyyyyyy.

Want a new collar necklace thing? Cut from collared tee aka uniform.

Want a toga top? Cut from song & song plain tee.

Yessum i cut a plain tee into a toga wanna see wanna see!

I'll show you anyways so you've no choice hehe

A quick picture because i'm not in the mood to really camwhore my new DIY lol.



Oooh and as i was cutting the collar, i realized the shirt could still be used and worn! Cors without the collar, it looks like a vintage-esque button down shirt eh?




Now i'm starting to get in the mood...
more DIY stuff are brewing in that grey matter they call the brain.

I guess all you need are just some disgusting but cr8ive brain jucie, a pair of scissors, a bout of courage to take the first step and throw in some newt's eye for good luck too lol stir the magic cauldron 7 times a day to praise and then voila! You get some good ol' DIY :D
P.S you can always add in some faith as well because while you're cutting shirts, why not move some mountains too eh? ;)

omg someone slap me please i'm sprouting flaky nonsense -.-