Sometimes we want what we can never have.

credits to shoelust site.

i seriously have a thing for shoes and my very wise friend doreen said today,

we are too poor to have a proper shoe collection.

my dad blames himself for our family's situation. he said that if only my mom had married someone smarter and richer, then maybe we'd be living the good life now.

but then i told him that if my mom had married someone smarter and richer, then i may be poorer in love and foolish in life. and that i'm actually really rich now, richer than he thinks!

because what my dad lacks in financial status, 

he makes up for it in love.

and that,

is priceless.

Job 23:8-10

“I go forward, but he is not there: and backward, but I cannot perceive him: on the left hand, where he does work, but I cannot behold him: he hides himself on the right hand, I cannot see him. But he knows the way that I take; when he has tried me, I shall come forth as gold”

To my friends,

We may not feel it yet, but all in due time. All in due time. 
Hold on to the promise.

Day Off

okay not exactly closed
, but the fever made me stay in bed all day though i'm going for work anyway.

been feeling sick recently and it only took be a few long days to realize that i am actually sick.
new resolution of the (mid) year = take care of myself.
i'd prolly photoshop something up to remind myself about that.

and somehow after dance, there'll be a part of me aching.
arms or legs or both.
or my heart, because it's kinda demoralizing to see that i'm not as good yet.

it feels good to just stay home, sip ribena and listen to that wind blowing against the fevered forehead, don't it?

And I look to You

after awesome mrs cho's service on sun, i walked home and snapped away at the lovely blue skies that were quickly turning grey.
the sun was so scorching though, i think i feel a mini sunburn coming on lol
but good thing i wore this dress and had ice cream to cool myself down b4 i melted in the heat.




and this dress, i haven't worn in the longest time!

saw this photo and it sure brings back memories :)

P.S i just had a hair cut from a cool saloon and at first i thought the guys were gay hairdresses cors they really pay attention to your hair and take time to talk to you and are so bubbly. okay well maybe i kinda think most of the bubbly men may be gay because straight guys are dark and brooding and mysterious. okay okay, some?
anyway i love my short hair!
R hun, looks like it'd be a while b4 i can go and perm it haha

Random #1:
(credits to the rightful owner of the pic)
doreen and i both got this! hehe it's pink and pretty glassy and hey, my mom collects them lol so i, the filial and extremely modest daughter bought it for my dear mom :D

Random #2:
a snippet of convo between eze and i.
eze: let's play tai di
me: don't want. play indian poker!
eze: tai di
me: cheat?
eze: no, tai di
me: ooh okay i know, forever 21!
me: i mean black jack, the 21 card game of course.

Random #3:
another snippet of convo between dad and i.
dad: lately my stomach's giving me problems..
me: ouh. how come ah?
dad: don't know leh. but just pain. and keep going toilet.
me: oh. you go toilet?
dad: ya.*gives me a confused look*
me: i mean! you go doctor?

lol what's wrong man my words keep tripping outta my mouth recently

*high five!* nice.

YES!!! I AM THE QUEEN OF TAI DI!
BIG 2!


hahah next time when IR opens i'm gonna be a millionaire hehe

had so much fun playing my my dad and bros that now i've to really rush for work.
A LOT of funny scenarios happened when playing because my dad forgot how to play and he was always constantly blur and it was hilarious i tell you.

here's what happened:

eze puts a K (king) card.
dad puts Q (queen) card.
i was reaching out to put my Ace card when shawn said STOPPPP
and i froze and we all froze.
then we were like what?!
and he pointed to the Q that lay so innocently on the K card, then we looked at my dad who looked so innocent with his deck of cards.
theen we all burst out laughing snd got my dad to withdraw his card.

-----

next:

my dad puts a tai di (2 spades card) down on the pile and so we wait for him to start a new round.
he asked us what he can put down now and we told him anything he wants cors he has to start a new round.
he then put all his cards on the pile and said yayyyyy

LMAO

i laughed so much my sides hurt
oh oh and shawn always ends up in a position where he has a card of 3 and he can't clear that obviously, so that's why he lost lol.

in the end, eze won 2 rounds while i won 5! *show off*
hehe

i am the queen of tai di of the chia family,
bow down to me!

today,

tres emotional day.

my dear maid's contract has ended and so she's off to fly back home.
i don't know why i'm feeling sad because normally i feel nothing much when the other maids come and go.
but i feel as though i've been through much more with Wari, my (not so) current maid.
maybe because these two years have been emotional and i feel the attachment because she's always there when i need her.
and we share those late night talks lol
she has heard me cry in the middle of the night
and i have heard her cry in the middle of the night


and the worse thing is i didn't even get to say goodbye :(
she left when i was using the washroom- i know! what kind of luck is that right?

*

and well my mom threw some of my beloved bags away saying she'll buy new ones but that will be like, never because all the bags that i pick out will either be ugly, over-priced or wait, i have too many bags for my own good so stop buying them bags.
makes no sense but arguing with her never works so i've learnt since young to just let her do what she wants, and i'll deal with the consequences on my own l8r.
so now i'm stuck with the few bags that i never really use.
you think i'm over-reacting because of a few bags but those bags had memories okay! like the one n329 bought for my bday or like my fave 5 bucks bag that i bought with jy.
they're all gone. forever.
i was really filled with indignation because it's easy for my mom to say she'd get me new bags but action speaks louder than words and i know that it may never come to pass so whatev.
fine, maybe i'm a tad bit sentimental.
but my mom said i should let go.
letting go means making room for new things..
what if i don't like the new things and can never find back the same stuff that i want?

*

ANYHOO,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOREEN :)

One tiny thing

i'm supposed to be rushing for my script outline now but i'm stuck because i'm hungry, i'm bored and i'm playing some RPG game on mofunzone. doesn't help that i'm fantasizing finding a cheque of 1,000,000 and then buying over the whole vintage shoe store around beauty world. (digressing, i have to go there to buy my shoes! pronto! but then i'm supposed to save as well so now i can only window shop online to gaze at the shoes that might one day be mine = not helping with my script outline either zzz)

and what am i even doing, blogging while i'm so distracted already!

okay okay after i complete 2 more levels in the RPG game, and after drooling over 2 more pairs of shoes, and after eating my dinner i shall start doing my work properly!

omg and i'm supposed to meet jy and the girls l8r too.
this year, year 2009 i'm really learning what it means to multi-task.
people wish they had 8 hands, i wish for 8 different user accounts in my brain so one of them can play, listen to music, dance, do PRODUCTIVE work, watch charlie and the chocolate factory (!!!), play with marquis and practice my singing too.
and after counting them i realize i only have 7 stuff to do.
okay i'll use up that extra user account in Felicia Chia's brain to learn math again.

ooh willy wonka's on!
wish me luck in my multi-tasking pool hehe

What's not to love?

NYLON magazine is ah-mazing. 

I loove the photographs! Talk about major eye-candies. (no I'm not talking about hot guys lol)

I'm gonna like go get an issue every month!

I've only discovered NYLON so late :X 

Think of all the things I've missed!

*

 

Hot topic makes the coolest colors...

.... and the coolest tees!


Mm what's that I smell?
Another D.I.Y?! *gasps*

okay so maybe i have been using dance as my means of 'escape'.
i have been tryna run away from reality by dancing because at least
when i'm dancing, i'm focused on the dance and not on my worries.
when i'm dancing, all that matters now are the steps, timing, accent, music and the fellow dancers standing beside me.
when i'm dancing, my stress is relieved. i'm shaking it out, sweating it out, letting it all out.

what insecurities? what lawsuit? what responsibilities?

i know that in the studio, i don't have to pretend to be someone i'm not.
i'm not a good dancer and i know that. but at least i try and i see everyone around me trying and that pushes me to dance even more. there is no fear in the studio (okay, maybe a bit lol) and it's almost therapeutic to watch the seniors dance around- and you see how one day if you train hard enough, you too can be as good as them.

and that's why i love going for dance practices.
the feeling's awesome that at the end of the session i just wish things wouldn't end quite so soon.. that maybe if i linger around in the studio for a little while longer.. then i can keep that good feeling within me for just a little while longer.
but i know i can't stay there forever so i slowly trudge my way back home.

in the studio, just dancing or lazing around or doing whatever, i feel like i'm in a bubble.
but like all bubbles, they burst and will fall back to the ground again.

i can't keep running away from the things outside of dance.
how long can i hide in the studio and stay in my own world of dance anyway?

i must face them;
the things i'm running from.

Father, i don't wanna run away from You.
i wanna run back towards You.
and i'm sorry i didn't trust.

just stop and think,

what if one day you wake up thinking it was a normal day..
only.. it's not.
some of your loved ones are missing.
gone, without a trace.
no note to say goodbye, no letter to explain why.

you realize this world is colder without them.
you realize how lonely things can get.
you realize that you have to face the tough times of this world;
alone.

you walk around and you wonder aloud,
'where did they go?'
it's so frustrating you just wanna shout.
and all the answers you wanna know.

then it suddenly dawns upon you like a missing puzzle piece
the friends that you suddenly miss
all had one thing in common-
they're are all of christian belief.

that rapture your friends were talking about;
how one day they would all go up to heaven
and receive the rewards in due time.
while those non-believers, sadly, stayed behind.

so now you know that the time had come,
when Jesus would descent from heaven down.
as the world will soon face its' end
and the left-behinds will face their trials.

if only you knew, if only you believed what your friends tried to tell you
then you, too, would have been spared from the fire.
but then it's too late as what's done is done
by then your friends would already be back home.

*
but lo, it's not too late now
as the world still spins, round and round.
while life is still in favor,

i'm asking you,
will you believe,

in Jesus our Saviour?