So what if right now everything's wrong?

i just posted the pictures of the the portraits.
scroll down to 6th aug post :)
hope it doesn't kill your com's speed.
lol

today's national day!
i'm loving the theme song. haha

last night i slept over at jy's.
it's comforting to have your bestfriend there when you're out of sorts.
thanks for giving up your bed for me!
and with good presence, it's just nice to have fellowship time.
oh, before that, trena came over and we played billards!
naturally i sucked at it.
so i just went to read while my brother and his friend play on with trena.
haha.

anyways, i went with jy for her cell gathering thing
and i'm glad i went :)
i liked everyone there as they were friendly and all that.
playing in settler's cafe was fun too!
i could stay there the whole day. lol

if only life could ever go the way we planned.
but it can't.
if only i could get my dad to just buy it back with his credit card.
but he can't.
if only i could drown in my mother's love forever, then i won't need anyone's love anymore.
but i can't.
if only i could throw a hissy fit just to get things done my way.
but i can't.
'cause i guess you've made up your mind.
and there's nothing i can do to change it.
so i'll accept it and wish you all the best.
i'll try to be strong and face the world head on, shoulders squared and chin raised up.
but i'll still be missing those days, those memories.
and i'll hang on to that diaphanous bit of hope.
waiting for the day when you finally have the time for me again.

if it makes me happy
it can't be that bad
if it makes me happy
then why the hell am i so sad