I can breathe again

I never liked traveling from one place to another.
Okay, I never hated it but never particularly liked it either.
Sure, it clears your head and lets you get that extra 7 mins of rest.
But other than that, I've never really appreciated long travels.
How tiresome and boring and time-consuming.

But today as I was riding the bus back with the girls, I was just thinking to myself 'how I wish to be home now, why can't I reach home, now. like now.' And that was when I heard this 'Traveling may be difficult and irritating at times, but it's necessary- to get to your destination.'
I immediately told the girls about it.
I know it's from my Heavenly Advisor from Above and it just opened up my eyes to trials that I'm facing now.
They are tough and troublesome, yes. But necessary.
How true and honest and revelational yet so
unexpected and pleasant and comforting.

I'm still learning how, but I'm breathing much easier now :)

The light is white, and i see You

It's amazing how you never notice how bright the light is,
until you're placed into the dark.

We humans are such funny things.
It is only when we almost lose something that we will begin to cherish it,
it is only in times like these that every little thing my family does for me touches my heart.

I can only thank God that it's not too late to start appreciating them fully.

(Relax, God's in charge)

:(


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:D

Because we are visual creatures.

Just one thing.

P.S; I miss you, mel! See you thurs! Hope taiwan's a blast :D

Whenever I see these photos, I'll remember what mel said about my pictures.
'You look so happy'
:)

I need some time off.. but no as usual I've not much time. School, proj filming, work, church. (Can I fit dance in there?)
Today I came home early for the first time in a long time and my dad was so happy.
Sigh, I think it's bad time management. If there's a kind soul out there who can help me plan my time proper.. Well, I offer free hugs? Lol


Please don't forget me.

So many things I want to say, but I don't know how.

How much more can you take?

How much more, before you finally crack.

How much more, until you give up.

I wish you wouldn't shoulder it alone.

Always keeping it to yourself.

Aren't we family?

And don't families go through things together?

If only you know that it hurts me to see you like this.

Hurts me so bad.

Juno

" Like I'd marry you! You'd be the meanest wife ever, okay? And I know that you weren't bored that day because there was a lot of stuff on TV, and then 'The Blair Witch Project' was coming on Starz and you were like 'I haven't seen this since it came out and if so we should watch it' and then 'but oh, no, we should just make out instead la la la'... "
-Bleeker

holler at ya boy!

My brother has a blog O_o
My younger brother has a blog O_o

My youngesttt brother has a blog O_o

SMEXY, no?!

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*okay end of amazement* hahah

& & & a pink umbrella has aLOT of uses, just ask jingying! ;)

hehe

well spent, this day.

Evil twin

Click on pictures to enlarge.

Fierce shoes. And I'm loving the black dress. Why don't we have stuff like that in sg?

P.S I can't wait for ION mall to be opened! See, ION Orchard = H&M = awesome shoes = more shoes = material delight = temporary happiness. No I do not have a shoe fetish. I just like shoes! I appreciate good shoe designs, is all. Is alllllll.

Delirious

I think my brain's a bit muddled now because I'm out on the sofa now and from where I'm sitting, marquis is looking more and more like a baby deer. Don't ask me why!

And my voice is all wobbly now. I just asked shawn for mushroom portage and it came out sounding like 'mushroo pour-hage'

Okay back to my drugs now and possibly another 6 hours sleep zzz

“ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. "

— Nelson Mandela

I don't want to tell my dad I'm not feeling well because he might not let me go for nightcycling and I really want to go for it I've been looking forward to it and I've already planned what to wear so that I can have a smooth and fuss-free transition from service >> dinner >> night cycling >> work A.M shift >> starhub new line without stinking up the whole place and I'm looking forward to talking to jia en after so long.

But now I don't know, I feel horrible. I'm wrapped up in blankets and still shivering. Yet my breathe feels very warm. I feel so tired.

And the flu tablets are too drowsy to consume. Going to the doc now :(

By your stripes, I am healed.

Like a comet, blazing 'cross the evening sky.. gone too soon.

RIP MJ

He was a legend, with his singing and dancing.

He inspired so many future artists (justin timberlake, boA and countless more) 

He was trying to heal the world.

He tried, he did.

In a tiny corner of my heart, I was wishing the news would suddenly announce that Michael is not dead and that it was a publicity stunt and then he'd go on with his world tour. I kept waiting for it all through the memorial show. 

You know why he loved little children especially?

In an interview, he said he just wanted to be like Jesus. Loving the little children.

I don't know how true that is but wow. 

He was one misunderstood man. 

At least now..

He can really rest.

Tidbits for your mind

I actually googled 'fairytale endings' to aid my writing for the animation outline thingy and I came across this web!

Alternate Fairy Tale Endings

Most of them say "...and they lived happily ever after." Here are some better ideas.

1.  And they stayed together because of the kids.
   
2. And he realized that money actually could buy happiness.
   
3. And eventually, she came to terms with the fact that she was probably going to have to save herself.
   
4. And they lived happily ever… until the following winter.
   
5. And she never had any idea that he was actually gay.
   
6. And eventually she came to terms that her stepmother wasn’t evil - just demanding.
7. And sometimes wondered whether a kiss that reanimated her from the dead was really grounds for a lifelong romance.
8. And the three of them lived happily ever after.

Hahaha

And just to get ya cr8tive brain juices flowing a bit..

1. The Mercedes-Benz motto is “Das Beste oder Nichts” meaning “the best or nothing”.
   
2.  The pupil of the eye expands as much as 45 percent when a person looks at something pleasing.
   
3. Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.
   
4. The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear.
5. The verb “cleave” is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere and separate.
   
6. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it.
   
7. Every day 200 million couples make love, 400,000 babies are born, and 140,000 people die.
   
8. The reason honey is so easy to digest is that it’s already been digested by a bee.
   
9. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.
   
10. Dalmatians are born without spots.
    

Mars VS Venus 101

I showed this to shawn the other day to ask for his opinion.

Me: Whaddaya think of this!

Shawn frowns and says: Where's the other hand?

LOL

Honestly?

Other people have it worse than me, 

other people don't even know how they are going to get their next meal, for Christ sake.

So as much as I'm sulking, I know it's not fair and now I'm just mad at myself to feel this way because it's not anybody's fault. It's not.

It's just that maybe, after all that we've been saying- like how love is all we need and how happiness can't be bought- that the world does revolve around money and we've just been kidding ourselves.

P.S & since we're being honest, I just can't stand myself sometimes. I'm so irresponsible I don't even know what to do with myself. I screw up time and time again, I don't see how anyone can still trust and believe in me. Especially if I can't.

Some one said that I was perfect. Omg I almost fainted.

If I was perfect, I wouldn't be constantly late for everything in life.

If I was perfect, I wouldn't have pimples and eye bags on my face.

If I was perfect, I would know the right things to say to people.

If I was perfect, I would be able to make people happy just by being with them.

But I'm not.

And you know something?

I don't want to be perfect. 

Because by being perfect, it means I wouldn't need, rely, trust or count on You.

And just the thought of that, makes perfect imperfect.

When life gives you lemon, you make... apple juice!

How where what why?

Just throw the lemon away and pick the apple from the tree luh!

LOL I'm not making much sense here eh, it's like 1 am now and I'm supposed to sleep but gosh stupid facebook is keeping me up with its games. Hate is a strong word but I really really don't like you, facebook. Tempt me only. Resist, felicia!

Right whatever fel. -.-

My phone is currently spoilt so I'm phoneless thus contactless thus MIA thus sorry if I don't reply people's calls or msgs. I'm gonna get a new phone on sun? Eons away, I know. But I'm not really relying on technology now so I feel quite freed-up actually. You should try it, go bang your phone spoil and then buy a new phone only 5 days later. Does wonders to your life. It's zen-like. Returning back to nature and all that mambo-jumbo. I can join the tree-hugging club! 

(I talk to myself when I'm tired lol no idea why. Wait maybe it's cors I become real lame when I'm tired. Like the lame filter switched off and so I sprout out whatever nonsense zzz)

Dance tmrw I'm nervous but please remind me to have the right motive, Father.

Thank you.

I'm not very good at dance, honestly.

But it's all for You, yeah it's all for You!

Hannah, Doreen, Renee, Jocelyn

OMG

i'm so touched.

just a simple phone call but i felt the love through the phone lines haha

LOVE YOU GIRLS, thanks!