i spy with my little eye, some unfinished d.i.y!

okay so recently with all the free time i had on my hands, i decided to make some stuff!
but gah, i need to learn how to be a good finisher because i might procrastinate and pretty soon all my projects will just go unfinished.
like that apple&pears dress i was making last year. lol and russel's pouch. and my tutu. and oh, the list can goes on.
so anyways with the chilly weather, i decided to make gloves!


(lol i look like a genie. a glove genie)



but with the uncompleted thing, it looked like a hand warmer and i don't mind. but! i shall finish and make it into gloves and stud it and yay can't wait. now to actually do it.

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next up, an outer coat!
i bought this long dress from haji lane's vintage store a while back and haven't found any use for it so i decided to cut it off to make it into a short-sleeved outer coat thingy cors i'm preparing for sg's heat. i sewed up the sleeve a bit and i shall wear it out soon!


(btw, i diy-ed my pink fur-trimmed clock and mirror. hehe pretty-making, yes?!)

and speaking of cutting things up, i had the sudden urge to do something to my hair and i tried pinning my hair into a new fringe and i quite like this new fringe and might cut it! or or or i'll just wait til it's longer and perm it. we'll see.



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oh yes! i changed my blogskin! (yeah, finally, huimin. hahah)
haha you could say i diy-ed to this too, seeing as i'm not web encoding savvy-
i'm rather proud of how the new simple skin came out!
i'm a n00bz after all. hope you like it as my as i do :D

lol this is sucha pseudo diy post.

dreams are dreams not reality so wake up before you get too lost, my dear

i have a dream. a dream that i can see in the day.
i dreamt that just for a day, a span of 24 hours, that things would be about me for once.
all about me.

(sounds selfish? but hey this is my dream, go get your own)

from the deepest corner of my heart, that in the special day, people would notice me and the things i do for them.
that people will do my favorite activities and let me have things my way.
that they would be nice to me whether i smile to them or not
most people only love you because of the beneficial things you do for them
so in a way, they're selfish too.

and me, being selfish now, somehow wishes that for once someone would just give and fill me up because i'm getting all tried out from giving and giving. some people just take too much and then they forget to give back.
how long can one keep loving if one doesn't feel loved? my love bank has been withdrawing withdrawing withdrawing.. that it seems like i'm in debt now because my love units are going on to the negative.

but then again i can't forget the people that i really appreciate. that no matter i weary i become from giving, i know that they will expect nothing in exchange for some love that they give. so in a way, i get filled up again.
then i go and the withdrawing continues...
and it seems like the withdrawing outnumbers the deposits.

i know i shouldn't rely too much on humans for love. that i should go direct to the Source.
i know.
now to do it.

i'm trying, really trying. though you can't see it. and then you think i haven't been doing my best when the truth is that i've tried so hard that i might just be bruised all over and am hoarse from all the screaming. maybe that's why i'm so tired most of the time. because i'm constantly fighting this battle and it's like i'm losing but i'm learning how to win with the Saviour on my side. still, it's tiring. but some might see it as an excuse.
maybe i shouldn't really care because what matters is that You see it. but i just can't help get affected by what others think about me. esp when it's the wrong thing.

but it's true what R said, when the battles keep on coming, it's when you get really desperate and you call out and reach out more than you've ever had before, because that's when you know you really need Him.

if no one will listen- kelly clarkson

Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think there's enough that you would drown?

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And god, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
It's screaming every step, "Just stay here"

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still


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He tells me He will be here still.

sometimes a song really speaks to me in ways no other words can. sometimes when i'm lost for words i find myself singing songs that mean what i'm trying to say. sometimes even in my own time with the Father, the songs contain all the emotions i feel and so i just sing and sing and sing until i've said all there is to say.

little rivers form the big ocean.

meet moopi the bolo tie!

a bolo tie is a cross between a necklace and a tie

and moopi was my necklace/tie for that day!

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Emerge was like a flashback.

it was awesome as usual, omg Emerge roxxxxzxs!

and after i had a gr8 time catching up with my long lost BFFs lol

so much has happened.. hard to believe it's only the 2nd month of the new year sometimes.

now let's meet the students of 2009 :D

an emotion;

" it's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you want to cry "

I feel like an excited little girl all over again!

And who can make me feel this way?
Barbie, of course!
I was too surprised to find out that there was a runway show featuring clothes that designers made with Barbie in mind!
I know I'm a bit slow, but the Barbie Runway Show on the 14th feb was simply fab!


Brings back memories of how I used to run into toy stores for their Barbies. I used to looove playing with my Barbies. And this runway show is rekindling my love for Barbie again.
Now to celebrate Barbie's 50th anniversary, 50 designers came up with their desgins for Barbie and here're some of my favorites:


(Christian Louboutin specially designed these heels in Barbie pink for this show. wow, i wanna wear socks with heels too)





(those blue gloves complete the look! i wonder if they sell those in sg. or can i diy gloves? remind myself to ask celia about it)

this was the first swimsuit Barbie wore! complete with a trench coat, i would wear them if i had them, honest. but wait til you see the next swim suit!)

(this whole outfit is my fave! the hat and ribbon and the grey and that blazer is just ooh la la. Rag and Bone= genius)






(this vintage two piece is just gorgeous. polka dots? check. big floppy hat? check. nude-ish gloves and high socks? check. i would so wear this to the pool! and risk resulting in stares but oooh it would be worth it!)

Don't you see Barbie wearing all these looks?
And not to mention that most of them are pink (!) and pretty and flattering
Barbie, if you find some clothes missing, you know who has 'em :D

Can't get enough?
Relieve your childhood days of Barbie with Barbie's blog! *gasps*
Hahaha and I'm just gushing here.

*drum rolls*

'what is my destiny, mom?'

what is my destiny, Dad?

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'and the oscar goes to......'
watching the oscars now.
it's so inspiring that people like us can one day stand on a stage like that and be recognized for credit you deserve.
watching the winning actors and actresses tear as they make their speech.
they didn't think such a major thing would happen to them.


we don't think such a major thing will happen to us.
but it will :)

i know it will.
come on, we won't be shortchanged.

are you psyched?!

'cors i sure am!
it's emerge tmrw night!
i love emerge manzzzzzzz


and the theme will be campus revival/fever/oh-no-i-kinda-forgot = wear school uniform!

sigh, sure brings back all the memories of the last time i wore a uniform.
















but that's okay
because there'll be much more memories to be made tmrw night :D

i wonder..

despise our youth, never

i found this really interesting photo gallery on www.time.com, you can check it out if you want ;)
these photos really caught my interest.
who knew that this man who was described as charismatic and charming even as a teenager would be the president of America in the future?











yes, he is Mr Barrack Obama.
yes, he is the first black american to become president.
yes, he promises change.
yes, he brings hope to America and all influences.

yes,

we

can.

intermission- 30 mins.

what i really want now,
is to have a picnic with You.

i'd wear my prettiest dress, and You just have to be there.
it'll be at a garden with lovely trees filled with shades of green, brown and yellow leaves.
wild flowers will spring forth in abandon, dotting the ground with their little white petals.
my bare feet will crush the grass and leaves on the ground, joining in the sound of rustling leaves on the trees.
the strong old trees that shelter us, making me feel so safe.
no one will be here except for You and me, no one to interrupt. we can finally be alone.
oh, to just forget the cares of the crazy world. to just spend time with You without being distracted.

i would bring some food, though i know You can bring the best food or make anything i feel like eating.
i would bring some juice, though i know You can grow the apples and make juice in no time.
i would want to bring, but You provide. You always provide.
when will i see that all You want is for me to bring is simply myself?

we would sit together on the soft ground, on a checkered red picnic mat and a picnic basket next to us filled to the brim with food. we'd talk. i ask you questions about my life and You answering me in the way that you do. they may never be the full answers i want to hear but they are the right answers i need to hear.
then we'll just talk. me, about my day. even though You already knew what happened, You still stay and hear because You know that i just need someone to pour out all my worries and troubles and happiness and emotions to. then You will reply, sometimes with words so wise that i do not see what it means. we'd talk, how i love talking to You, and somehow the food and my hunger will lay forgotten.
because You are all that i need.

and when i start to get tired, we'll just lay on the grass bed. i'll be smiling, i'll be contented. i never want to leave You. to leave such peace, such calm. such love.
but You say that now that i'm well-rested, i should get back on and share the joy with others. keeping and holding it all to myself would be too selfish. keep loving, like how I love you.

and so the intermission ends, and the audience scurries back to their seats as the light dims.
the curtains begin to open and i take a deep breath as i walk up the stage.

my life is Your song.
let it be a sweet, sweet sound in Your ears.

big girls don't cry

but bride wars make grown men cry.

honest.
the guy beside me was wiping his tear.
anyways quite a lot has been happening, but now i've to do some stuff b4 my batt dies and i lost my charger so 45% batt is supposed to last me for some time *gulps*
shall update when use someone's charger or su'm heh

but before i go!



say bye to marquis!
he likes to sneak into my room cors he loves me :D

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fine, he just likes to take my things and bite them. look at my stocking on the floor!
meanie.
just because he has sharp teeth and has a cute face.




and say goodbye to my dad + me +my hair.

hahah stupid hair i'm thinking of doing something to it.
perm or dye
Yay/Nay?

have yourself a swell day :D

a man is waiting in line at a bank where he meets his long time friend, the poet.


poet: everyday is an adventure! that's my motto.
man: oh, so what are you doing today?
poet: robbing this bank. *takes out guns* NOBODY MOVE!


hahah you gotta love Big Fish.

a superhuman is still a human; just someone really really super.

i told my parents that this year didn't feel like chinese new year.
that the excitement and mood is gone.
and that i'm not really looking forward to it much.


is it just me, or does this chinese new year celebration seem like another celebration, but nothing too impacting to be mentioned much? like helping my mom put in the clean and crisp notes into the ang baos, like eating bak kwa or like deciding what to wear for chinese new year, doesn't seem all that much fun or important anymore.

maybe it's just me.

i miss the times when i would get rather excited about chinese new year and the reunion dinner. i miss all that. now it just seems like the novelty has faded away. i just wish i could get it back for a while. then maybe i wouldn't feel so dull. it's as though now is the time to grow up, to board a train and reach the other side, only to find out it's not as happy-go-lucky as you thought it would be. and right now as 2009 is going on, my emotions ride on a roller-coaster. oh Jesus, more of You. less of me.


so my dad came into my room just now, talking to me real gently, trying to find out why i'm not happy with chinese new year this year. i got sulky and grumpy, i'll admit, and i just grunted my responses and all. then i complained that i didn't get to buy my proj materials because big bookshop was closed even though the signboard said otherwise. and i insistently wanted thick boards for my proj idea and we didn't have them at home. or so i thought.
my dad prodded around my short responses and figured i felt so moody because of my proj and so he said he'll find me boards and he went and dug around in the store room at 1am and got me a cardboard box. then he gave it to me and said,
"With daddy around, i'll help you, no worry. Now you can do your project already. So, are you feeling better for the chinese new year now?"




i wanted to cry, there and then.

spring cleaning!

to welcome the chinese new year, i shall clean up my blog!
which involves my neglected tagboard. :X
omg i've never actually done this b4. serves me right for not replying to people's messages.
compound interest thingy.
okay sooo i copy and paste from my tagboard and my replies are in italics, aye?

20 Jan 09, 21:40
IRWIN: woah woah woah, cool calander! - HEHE yeah i know, right! it's the bizbozzz. everyone should get one!

18 Jan 09, 23:14
.jyings: update,update! - updating in process, my dear! :D i'm still doing the blogskin lol

7 Jan 09, 02:00
RACHEL: i misss all of you threeee. - aww rae I MISS YOU too :( when are we finally gonna meet up! sunday? :X

6 Jan 09, 00:44
Sara: Omgggg, hahaha, that was fun! But I look like I'm on crack. haha - hahah yes it was fun! :) no i think it was the msg. and we all look like we're on crack heh

3 Jan 09, 23:59
Amanda Prabhu: hey felicia! hahaha how are you?? ive been hearing from mel but not from you!:( take care see ya soon - hey you! haha sorry lost contact with you for a while. i'm gr8, thanks! :) we should chat our facebook chats again!

3 Jan 09, 15:12
minl: lol. MAO. HAHAHA. - COURT OF ORDER. I HEREBY DECLARE MYSELF THE WINNER OF MAO. LOL

2 Jan 09, 15:35
chansee: HEYY HAHAHS let's play game of mao together again XD WAHHA! all the best in 2009! link me up eh XD - hey! sure thing i'll link you up soooon. hahah yes mao! see ya at dance :)

29 Dec 08, 17:37
minl: haha still waiting for pics man..... - i'm getting the usb thingy from doreen, hang on a wee bit longer babe!

25 Dec 08, 20:12
huimin: merry merry christmas! - MERRY CHRISTMAS <333 have a blessed year ahead!

23 Dec 08, 20:00
hannah: once again, great performance. haha sry for not giving you flowers man, but nonetheless its the appreciation that matters =] - haha yes it's the thought that counts and thanks for just being there to watch! love you! no i don't need flowers it's okay :)

16 Dec 08, 16:15
Monster: All the best with the dance! u go gal! - THANKS! :) and your w.e.a.r concert too. see you around, ced!


7 Dec 08, 22:10
rae: hey babe! really miss ya! (: i <3 u. link me, yeah? and see u real soon!! -hey girl, lunch lunch! haha and yes see you soon and linking up! :D


7 Dec 08, 19:47
HUIMIN: yes! when le en say's update felicia must updatee!!! -AND YOUR WISH IS MY COMMNAND *bows*

7 Dec 08, 19:23
roxanne: HIHI - hey roxanne! haha how've you been? catch up with you soon eh? :)

7 Dec 08, 00:44
LE EN: when le en says update, UPDATE! - YES, MADAM. UPDATED! :D

4 Dec 08, 18:24
madd: You are so funneh! haha! mid-life crisis. ZOMG was I with you the other time when we talked about mid-life crisis? - MADDY! haha yes i think it was with you? on the train! (is it?) lol anyway see you on thurs and g'luck for the projs! <3


4 Dec 08, 12:34
HUIMIN: *busy - hahah just join in next time ;)

2 Dec 08, 11:28
.jyings: hahaha awwwwww fellllllly. your posts are so cute! - hahah thanks jingying! <3

1 Dec 08, 23:49
russe: bloc party, baby! hahaha. anger issues. there is a gig on 6th dec. i just called you but you didnt answer. - oh yes, bloc party! haha how the gig recently anyway? and yes i may have anger issues haha but we're friends for a reason russel. :D


1 Dec 08, 22:05
HUIMIN: Hmmmm, because. You were buys taking PICTURES! - OH hahah woops, ah next time you interrupt us and join in the fun! :D

'sup dawg?

in an attempt to make my blog cooler, i added a k00l calendar.
now there's only 3 words to end this fluffy dope post;





i'll be back.


(yes i sound stupid. but know what?
i'd rather be lame but happy anyday
than to be cool but emo all the way)


word.



(okay i better stop here b4 someone shoots me)
PEACE, MAH FREIND!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PULL YOUE EAR!

here's what you get when you put jingying,



sara,



and me



together after eating cup noodles at west coast plaza.

result?

photobooth invasion right here right now
be warned.







































and there's about 124 more pics to go. hehe