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Dear Doreen,

I feel so honoured you put this up on your tumblr. I saw it and my heart went 'thump thump' in happiness!

Girl, please!

I was thinking of posting up some drama that happened today,
but after watching singapore idol and hearing eze's comments.. I laughed all my anger away.
So now I don't feel pissed off or the like but I do still feel like I should say a few words.
Just a few.
How few?
A few.


Right.


ANYWAY, today I was on the bus and this couple were standing beside me and the guy kept looking over.
(I must explain, I am kinda used to having people give me a once-over because of what I wear or how spaced-out I look. I just ignore them now to a point I actually almost ignore any one I don't know. But boyfriends? Sometimes they look even when their beloved is right next to them. Gosh if I had a boyfriend who had wandering eyes I don't know what I'd do.)
Sooo this dude kept glancing over to my direction (I knew 'cos I caught him looking at me) and his girl noticed. I was minding my own business and just looking straight ahead.
The girlf then started clinging onto the guy for her life and they were like super affectionate all of a sudden.
I was like, okayyy happy couple. And ignored them.
Then the girl started snickering. I turned to look at them and she stared at me and the guy looked away.
I knew I had no ketchup on my face, not a chance. I thought I looked decent b4 I stepped out of the house.
So why was she looking at me like that?
Anyway it was my time to alight and just as I was walking down the bus, I heard the girl say:
'He is mine okay. Don't despo can.' I turned just in time to see her looking at me so I knew she was talking to me.
I was so shocked that I just stood at the bus stop with my mouth wide open.
Then the bus was gone, oblivious to the tension and situation that just happened.

Puh-lease I am not gonna steal your boyfriend.
I have morals and I hate 3 parties anyway PLUS it's not as though your boyfriend is hot lol.
YOUR boyfriend was the one who looked, nawt me.
I am so sick of all those girlfriends in the past who thought I was hitting on their boyfriends when I was just standing there minding my own business.
Then I get hate-glares and all I can do is to roll my eyes and stand elsewhere where your boyfriend can't see me-
in case I, y'know, try to steal your boyfriend.
Jeez, these boyfriends are too much.

For sarcasm's sake:
I am a man eaterrrr. Watch out. I eat men for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Oh and maybe I'll have your boyfriend for dessert.
Wonder how good that'll taste.
Prolly yucky because the unfaithful-boyfriend taste is quite sour.

*

See, it's just a few words hehe

In my skin;

(celebrating hannah's bday at kbox)

“ Be yourself; everyone else is already taken."

-Oscar Wilde

Is that a monster!

Alex Dram is a genius!

Fake it to make it

That, and the fact that I have very low social awareness skills.
I don't really notice people around me unless there's really something that catches my attention but generally I spend walking past people I may have known and I don't see them until it's too late.
It's not that I'm unfriendly or proud, God no.
I'm just so used to not noticing people because in the past, I'll get all paranoid when people stare at me like I've ketchup on my face (it's quite impossible because I don't eat ketchup lol but still)
Plus sometimes I don't blend in with my dressing (lol moment) and so I just get used to stares that now I'm not even aware of stares and people thus = bad social awareness.
I'm gonna start taking better notice and up my awareness skills.
Watch out, world. I'm gonna be so aware of everyone that I'll like keep smiling and waving like a dork (maybe even to young strangers) and you'll prolly be scared off but hey, at least I tried *shurgs*

THINKING: tumblr or lj switch?
I wanna start something new haha but first I need a place for that..

Maybe the first time you saw her you were ten. She was standing in the sun scratching her legs. Or tracing letters in the dirt with a stick. Her hair was being pulled. Or she was pulling someone’s hair. And a part of you was drawn to her, and a part of you resisted—wanting to ride off on your bicycle, kick a stone, remain uncomplicated. In the same breath you felt the strength of a man, and a self-pity that made you feel small and hurt. Part of you thought: Please don’t look at me. If you don’t, I can still turn away. And part of you thought: Look at me.

— Nicole Krauss, The History of Love

(view from the pool)

"The strongest man in the world is he who stands most alone."

An Enemy of the People

Dr. Stockmann, Act 5.

Sabbath Sunday

I think I'm like the 1404053845th person to say this, but blogger is screwing up on me.
No matter it's not like I've very important and useful things to post.

I'm gonna clear up my wardrobe and maybe use some of the old clothes for possible DIY projects
(my head is bursting with ideas omg I feel like compiling my ideas and pictures into a book to share with the world on how to reuse, reduce and recycle!)
Okay that'll be my future future project haha like after I've completed ALL the DIY I wanna do.. gosh get me started and now I'm all excited.
I need a new wardrobe and hanger thingy so I can hang my pretty clothes proper instead of cramming all into my cupboard now.

And I'm so encouraged by yesterday's msg.
Have been battling some giants of my own (who isn't?!) and just to set the record straight-
I'M NOT GIVING UP.
NEVER.
EVER.

I may be moving slow or fumbling along but I'll keep going, just keep going because when you're down-
up is the only place you can move on to.

Speaking of UP. I NEED TO WATCH IT SOOOON
I haven't watched a movie since like feb or su'm sobs such a loserrrrr
I miss the movies I miss popcorn I miss the plushy chairs I miss the surrounding I miss my movie experiences where're my movie datesss :(
And I wanna go out more cors I haven't been going out leisurely so yay to the new week- shopping and hanging out and just being free.
I likeee.

Okay I'm off to pack my lovely clothes and to dig up treasures
(sometimes I buy new stuff then I cram it into my wardrobe and forget about it until like a year later)
Hahaha and dance on tues I so can't wait
I wish I could do this just foreverrrrr
Go to church, dance, pack clothes, DIY clothes, make a book, go out have fun and what not.
I wouldn't mind if you throw a boyfriend in the mix too but then I think I'm pretty hopeless because I'm not usually like this
I'm usually like this- sit at one corner and never speak a single word and only laugh just to breathe and oh- I haven't watched movies in ages too
HAHAHAH rightttt I'M LIKE THAT. THIS POST YOU'RE READING IS NOT ME HEHE
Wow I'm crazy too omg.
Good thing there's prayer meeting l8r to cure my insanity lol

I'm just so lovedrunk on God right now, feeling so contented too.
Thanks God, I'm not giving up :)

To the person who needs to let things out.. just let things out then :) I'll guess your identity soon lol.. but for now, cheer up.

Muh-muh-muh-mah

Glitter-ed lips + lightning drawn hands,

totally inspired by Lady Gaga.

Sorry for the picture spam but boy, I'm in some camwhoring mode now -.-

Okay, pokerface sugarface. Let's play a love game! Then we'll just dance.. Oh wait is that the papparazzi? -songs by Lady Gaga

His creations

Sorry for sucha huge picture, I forgot to compress it and I used photobucket to upload so lol
but this way, you can see every detail clearly no? :D
I don't know if I'm spoiling my cam lens by always pointing it to the sun because I loove taking silhouette pictures like the above.

P.S thanks for all the anonymous 'letters' shared with me :)
haha some are a bit hard to guess who is who but it;s maybe cors I'm giddy with excitement just opening hotmail to see those letters.
keep 'em coming, dear readers!
haha and don;t need to keep encouraging me (although it has been real nice hehe)
i cr8ed the thing for you guys..
it's all about you now.

I will run
I will soar, on eagle's wings.
As I wait on You Lord
my strength is restored.
Fix my eyes
on You, Jesus
as I run this race..

Help me fight
this
fight of faith.

Because sometimes you just need someone to listen to you, be there for you, talk to you.. talk about that bargain sale you went to, about that crush, about your classmates, about your parents, about life, about butterflies and rainbows, about why things are the way they are.

Share with me everything, about anything at all.
Anything that no one may seem interested to know about.
Anything that no one can know about.
(It's all anonymous)

I might not be able to accomplish much in life, but listening- that I can do.
And because I know how it feels like when no one is really interested in your day.
So go ahead,
click here

Share :)

All Black Crew

Hi Ms. Joan Jett,
can I just say you look smashing. Oh and we both have the same colored hair- aren't we compatible!
y'know maybe if one day you'd like to pass me the studded motorcycle jacket and that tight shiny pants with the black boots,
you know where to find me.
maybe if you can stay awhile, we'll eat some cakes and you play your guitar and just maybe, I'll hear you sing 'I love rock and roll'.

thank you :)

lovin'-the-black-hair,
Felicia

Hola, holidays!

So many things I wanna do.. but I'll slowly plan them out first.
If you fail to plan you plan to fail!

Cheers to ample rest and good catching up with people I miss dearly.

And thank you for those who care.
I now know I'm not alone.

shout out

HI WEI NING I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG SO HELLOoox

HAHA I THINK YOU'RE COOL, DON'T THINK OTHERWISE.

(I'm kinda nerdy as well)

(btw I'm listening to you and hannah talk in makan place now and you guys are funneh)

CHEERS TO OUR FUTURE OUTINGS!

CAN'T WAIT WHOOOO

OH AND HI HANNAH DOREEN RENEE JINGYING :)

Jeepers creepers

I've always wanted a creeper, but then again I wouldn't know what to wear with it without going too lolita-ish .
But when I saw this on freepeople.com, I can't help but feel it would complete my outfits now.
(Same goes to the other pairs of shoes that I've ordered this month. Need. To. Stop. Buying. Shoes. Pronto.)
My shoe cabinet is running out of space lol but I can't help it! All the shoes look so pretty and interesting and I just wanna wear all of 'emmmm.
Which is not a good idea since I'm still a student = low budget.

Okay I feel like I've typed something like that b4 (about my, ahem, love for shoes) so I shall not bore you any longer.
On a complete different note,
I've had a bad start today but things started getting better back at home.
I'm almost losing my faith for the human race but then again, when you're feeling blue- everything's black.
Blue black geddit haha okay not funny zzzz see you when I see you!

Frolick

I wouldn't mind dressing up and going downtown, watching a movie- any movie, eating ice cream, taking lots of pictures and laughing and just being silly.
Just because.
For no reason at all, just walking along with the crowd.. without a care in the world. For one day, at least.

Oh I wouldn't mind at all.

Red + White

Happy birthday sg!
I'm pretty satisfied with the government (or 'garment' as hannah calls it lol) because they've managed to keep sg this safe and clean and free and growing for all these years.. They're not corrupted (i hope) and they treat us rather fairly. And we've come a loong way from the slums to where we are now (a huge high tech space shuttle).
I love being a Singaporean and so I decided to be patriotic and don the red and white colors.
I had a red top and was gonna wear my chunky white wedges but decided against the shoes just b4 leaving the house.
I also bought a new pink thing for my lips and yay I like it better than red.

i like.

marc johns

is cool. and he likes lighting bolts. jingying will like him too.

my love letter

kettle,

I need to tell someone or else its going to rip me apart. The reason I am so in love with life, is because I am so in love with you.

— pot

from letters to crushes

*

Every time I think I can't do it, you stretch me further.

Every time I think I might break down, you push me further.

And I used to dread that feeling..

But it is now that I see how you've made me grown because you never gave up on me even when I tried to back down. Even when I wanted to give up, You still trusted me and pushed me on. I'm forever grateful for that.

Don't let me go.

Lord,

Help them.

Help me.

this week is crazy.

french presentation, script, maya room filming, mother-ship maya, nat geo opening.

Take time to realize.

I was just wondering..

Would you choose love or would you choose career?

Sure, we all need both.

But what if at some point of time, there can only be one?

I think I'd go with love..

because I don't see much of a point pursuing a career if there is no one special to be there for you, to cheer and encourage you on- to just love you no matter what.

Love is what we need in this messed-up world.

I think that if you have love, it just makes life so much more meaningful then having a good career. Life would be filled with small excitements and butterflies in your stomach and giddy smiles.

"But you can't survive on love alone"

Oh hush,

Reality's such a wet blanket at times.

Update

It was gr8 meeting up with Rachel (ngee ann) today :)

Had been a while since we last caught up, so finally we had a chance to spend some quality time.

Rachel if you're reading this- shopping during the hols! I can't wait for it already haha

I don't know what's up with me and shopping but I just like getting stuff. It's like my anti-depressant. Unhealthy, yes. But I feel better after I buy something new.. Even if it's a cd or something for my dog or a tiny hair clip. Cheap thrills, perhaps. Okay wait, not so cheap sometimes.

Sigh I need to control. And find that happiness else where.

I need to learn how to save, thanks doreen for the advices :)

I will decant hawker coffee into a starbucks cup so I can hang out with you guys if we go to starbucks lol

I think I'm materialistic and superficial and I hate it. I mean, do I really need so much stuff???

No :(

Woke up a few times with sore eyes and they make my eyes all teary the whole day.

Lack of sleep is making me cranky and stoned. Like a zombie. A zombie who snaps at marquis because he ate my tissue paper. (Not that I was gonna eat the tissue paper but he shouldn't have eaten my tissue!)

Yeah, like I said. Cranky.

And I'm not really capable of intellect talks now cors I think I will zone out while you're talking about world peace and I'll be thinking of my soft pillow on my bed which makes me think of my bed which makes me think of diving into it which makes me feel like switching off my phone and annoying alarm clock and just sleeping until the cows come home.. Where was I? Oh yes, I can't talk much sensible stuff unless it's rare moments like dinner with rachel np.

Just read renee's blog;

Hun, let's go studio wu for dance together! I'm here with you and don't be afraid okay? No stress, we'll just be dancing with strangers who love dancing too!

Like what Jyings always tell me;

FAITH OR FEAR, CHOOSE

YOUR CHOICE

Presenting...

The wonder girls

(N329/E494 edition)

I want nobody nobody but you

*clap clap*

"How can I be with your mother, when I don't want any other"

(That's what I heard when the song was playing!)

Guys, lol

Miss Universe is on telly now and my mom was saying that all 3 pairs of eyes (dad, eze and shawn) are glued there now. I was agreeing when my mom suddenly said- 'make that 4 pairs.'

I turned and guess what I saw?

Marquis sitting by the sofa watching the tv too.

LOL men.