it's easy to feel like you're all alone
to feel like nobody knows
the great that you are,
the good that's inside you,
is trying so hard to break through.

people's worse fear isn't death;
though it seems like it.
no, it's not the great unknown too.
but it's the fear of being gone from people's memories.
no one remembers you and your presence on earth
like you didn't make much of a difference anyway.
yes people like to be heard.

but i know that He recognises me for who i am
& it deeply comforts me so so much.

sometimes you start feeling insignificant,
feeling like you're left out of the world's busy schedule
as people around you whirlwind about their own activities.
when someone suddenly recognises you.
just that little action of appreciating-
warms your cold heart a little

and then maybe, just maybe
you're not forgotten afterall.

yowsa

greetings here all the way from thailand, hua hin :)

yeah it IS kinda weird to see my last post & me in sg and then the next thing you know,
i'm blogging from thailand.
sorry this blog's been poorly managed.
please have mercy
for i have been so busy..
and using the internet doesn't really appeal to me that much- as it used to.

okay so to update ya!
here i am in thailand in this lovely small town of hua hin,
staying in this LOVELY villa-resort place where its' famous for its spa and services.
not to mention that it's 5 stars, so yeah you pretty much get the lovely picture :)

my mom and i are here on account of her having some end-year meeting thing and its held here so i tagged along :D
then are the meetings are over, we'll move to bangkok and stay there forever and shop til the death.

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no sorry i'm just kidding.
my sense of humour is currently asleep as its 11.27pm sg time now
and i had less then my normal 10 hrs of sleep so pardon this SOHF (sense of humour failure),
it's just regrettably inevitable.

we'll move to bangkok to have a shopping spree and will be back on sunday!
i kinda miss sg already..
but living life in this resort is GR8.
i could get used to this.
i sooo could.

oh as the hotel staff was showing my mom around the meeting venues and stuff like that,
she took us for lunch at their poolside restaurant and blah blah we had their famous glutinous rice with mangoes for dessert.
and whoever who gets to eat the last piece of mango from the plate will, like, meet their love of their life/ boyf/ girf/ crush/ etc..
or so the saying goes.
it's a good thing i'm 25okm away from sg so you can't see me blush scarlet upon hearing that.
i know i'm 16 now and i'm supposed to be all mature and not blush whenever i think of it but i can't really help it.
ugh i've flown so far away and yet i still think about it.
jingying IS right, for the first time, (or the second.. or the third.. or..)
i've got it bad.
dang it i'm here to enjoy and de-stress myself in this eden-look alike!
i did not pay hundreds to live in a posh resort with a private beach that serves excellent food to think about someone who probably doesn't even remember my name.
so stop it!
*slaps myself*

on to this place,
it's totally pretty-making!
it is decided.
i shall elope here and make this place my secret escape.
well, it's not much of a secret now that you know but still.
i shall change my name and cut my hair short and then dye it in caramel-honey shades of brown.

... thinking about it,
i'm not so sure i can live in this city.
i mean the resort's fabulous.
but the city is still kinda in the poverty state with loads of flies.
maybe next time.
when i win the lottery of a million mosquito coils :)

anyway i'm eating leftover pizza, wathcing heroes season2.
btw gossip girl is addictive!

oh oh and i'm working!
haha yes i can see the cogs working in your brain, trying to figure it out.
well i shall tell you and put a stop to your misery.
i'm working as a waitress in this italian restaurant.
i haven't broken any cups or plates yet,
so, so far so good :D

okay that's all for the update and i'll blog again when i can.
no promises it'll be soon though.

sawadika

look what the cat dragged in

well look what i got myself into again
monday afternoon i went to see this eye specialist who told me i had cornea abrasions, they hurt like hell btw, and allergies so i'm gonna be in need of some heavy eye drop medication thing thing.
doc gave me a patch to wear til today and i'm gonna see him again later to have coffee and talk about the latest movies.
in all seriousness, i'm getting my patch down today and i should be a-okay soon!
this eye patch has really gotten alot of people staring..
they think i'm some ah lian who got herself socked in the eye for speaking very bad english.
the cheek.
well, any publicity is good publicity, i guess

of course when i'm rich and famous they'd better think otherwise muahaha


i was trying to be happy despite my circumstances

ahh lemme wallow in my self pity for a while.

& its so sad that i can't even cry at myself because the doctor said the tears would wash the meds away.

yeah i think i'd make a good pirate next time.

ahoy mateys!

hope you had a good laugh at my misery now

at least someone's happy

well i'm gonna get some lunch and then it's off to the cold air-conditioned eye specialist!

p.s:

i can't imagine how my eye doc can stand to be an eye speacialist.

like, seeing people with eye infections and eye sores and what nots aren't bad enough.

i scare myself everytime i look in the mirror at my eye sores.

but then again, if there weren't doctors like him,

i would have never been properly taken care of.

like i said, i am contradictionary.

you still have to love me *evil laugh*

o levels are almost over

so like recently i've been feeling rather........
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nono i'm not implying that i do not feel anything anymore, that i'm just an empty shell with no meaning in life or who trys to stab herself but don't feel the pain blah blah

no, i feel.. at a loss.
it's sort of an empty feeling actually
like, after O levels are over
there's suddenly nothing important to work for now.
no goal.
no mugging through the night to rush all revisions (at least for now)
it's as though while i'm waiting for the results,
the whole world has stopped.

yeah it's a really curious feeling..
nothing bad or sad or suicidal or depressing.
just a strange hollow feeling.
like all this while i've been slogging rather hard for Olevels and now that it's over,
there's a whole big part in me just wondering the same thing.



what's next?



i wake up every morning asking myself what i have to do for the day
and it's pretty much...

...nothing.

sure there's shopping, outings, movies, jobs and a whole lot of fun frivolous things for me to do but i wanna do something meaningful for a purpose, you know?

and now as i await the O level results
i have so soo sooooo sooooo sooooooo much time to think through what i intent to pursue after my secondary school education and this has left me with another big question mark. i know i keep saying that i want to get into mass comm no matter what but i think the main issue here is whether i have what it takes to get in.
or not.
urgh see that's why i don't like having too much time on my hands.
my mind will start to work itself overtime and i'll come up with revelations i'd never knew existed -.-
i know i sound contradictory.
as i used to really love to spend the hols away with leisure and ease..
but that's cause i am lol
anyway i was saying that this werid feeling that i have inside of me now is so queer as suddenly i'm thinking about the future and understanding that i should never take the present for granted and about my capabilites that are needed to survive in this dog-eat-dog world.

i know i'm suddenly complex haha
i bet some of you had always thought i was a bimbo or the sort.
well FYI, i do have my intellectual moments!
maybe not now but you get the idea :)

well this post is just a spreadsheet of my thoughts and rather pathetic explanations of my emotions and i know that it's neither here nor there and is quite incoherent but please don't blame me..

i'm just a teenager, afterall.
a teen who's trying to find her place in this world

but i know that i have a place in heaven already so terror of the night, you can try to attack me in my dreams but i will not be afraid anymore as i am a child of God and He will never let you harm me.

p.s. i keep saying 'i know' in this post because i guess i'm maturing now and i realise much more things then i use to..
I KNOW, just one of the perks of being a teen.

when you've no inspiration whatsoever to blog...

you distract the whole world by writing some crap so that you've filled up yet another blog entry, just a little something to keep your blog alive.

so here goes it!

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE MOMENT

1) it has been long since i last ate sushi. i want sushiiiiiii

2) it's britney, bitch. (i was just hearing her latest song and thought that it was pretty cool that she added in that part to the song)

3) the mee siam i have on the table is soggy and dried up, with bits of onions in there. :X

4) marquis is going for his sterilisation and licensing tmrw.. poor boy.

5) i don't wanna move out of the big black comfy chair but i guess i must.

6) i don't have a dress for prom yet! :(

7) wondering how i should do my hair and make-up for prom.

8) i currently like to eat rocky master's light mushroom soup and subway's cookie. i feel like eating them now..............

9) and sushi!!

10) did i mention i wanted sushi too??

11) sushiiiiiiiiiiii

12) Sushi, the combination of raw fish and seasoned rice that seems so exotic to foreigners, is a supremely logical food in Japan.

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okay i'd better stop b4 i turn this whole post into a sushi-fied one.

anyways, to compensate for wasting your few minutes that have been wasted from reading this.. here's a happy picture of us flying!
i hope it can erase at least a little of the sheer boredomness you've obtained from my blog.









hah, we're doing it wayyy better than david blaine huh

scratch that!

no wait, i won't be sleepwalking tmrw because it's...

*drumrolls*

.. JING YING's BIRTHDAY!
like, sweet sixteen?
hell, yeah!
my best friend jyings is finally 16
yayness :)
just wanna take this time to thank her for everything she's done for me.
giving me prep talks when i feel like a low-life scum, encouraging me to study,
letting me sleep over when i was down, treating me to bubble tea when i was broke, listening to all my troubles, those late-night talks last time, being my shopping buddy and so many other uncountable things she has done for me.
she's like the older sister i never had!
so babe, love ya and hope you enjoy your special day! (;

do not disturb

currently in hibernation mode.
i'm sleeping off everything..
my sickness, my lousy grades, my interest in school and so much more.
well, you know what they say.
wake me up when september ends.

b'cors the next day would be my birthday, hehe.
okay. whatever, felicia. who even cares?
dammit, what's wrong with me.
i'm feeling so negative again.
i thought thought i could do well in eng or lit.
looks like i've just been kidding myself all along.
seriously. why did i even think i could top the class?

go away stupid negativity spirits.
i'm totally contented with my life because God's in charge :)
hooray to that.
you know, without Him, life is just..
an empty shell, not worth living for.
these are just what i think.

"He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us."
2 Corinthians 1:4
:)

right, where was i?
oh yeah.
i'm going into deep slumber now
and walk around like a zombie when in sch.
i'll conserve whatever energy possible.
cors i am so draineddd

do i?

haven't blogged in a long time.
so let's update now, shall we? :)
sorry thrill-seekers. it's gonna be normal, boring stuff.

prelims, just over.
one more month to the real thing.
i'm real glad that God and my great friends are there to walk me through this.
i'm not too sure about my prelim grades..
though i know i deproved.
on the plus side, ms k. said that i'v improved! :D
so i guess the study hours kinda pay off
now it's time to give it my best shot!

i haven't been in the best of health recently.
is it a mental problem i have?
cors i realised that everytime it's near the exams,
i fall critically(sometimes) ill.
whatev i can't let it affect me..
(that's why some smart ass invented the vitamins for right?)
so bring on the vitamin pills, baby!
who knows if i'm lucky the extra vitamins can give me a much-needed boost in my IQ. heh

ohoh!
guess whattttttt...........
nevermind i'll tell you. lol
my lovely and generous angel is LIMEI!
yeah she made the cute soft angel-bear, gave me multi-coloured pills & all the gifts that make me feel loved and happy :)
so thanks babe, you're the best!
i'll try to take pictures of the pressies and let you guys see it and be jealous ;D

the funny thing is?
Limei's MY mortal.
hahahaha like, we've been blessing each other.
so i hoped she liked the gifts and blessings that i've given her :)
& during the final round where we had to give our angel a thank-you speech and a gift, it was totally funny to find out that limei's my angel AND mortal.
haha
i am to attend a wedding dinner later.
what to wear??
but anyways,
what's the point about weddings?
i mean, how do you know if you can stay together, forever?
as loving as you were even though you quarrel,
can you really stay with your other half through weal and woe?
how do you know that that person is the one you wanna grow old with?
to commit your whole life to. the big step.
to forgive again when he's done you wrong.
to have kids and share every problem and every happy memories.
is your love strong enough for that?
ahh. no i'm not a cynic.
i still love and believe in love..
do i?

is it enough to love?
is it enough to breathe?
is it enough to die?
i'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
hanging from the ceiling,
life's a mobile
spinning round with mixed feelings, crazy & wild
sometimes i wanna scream out loud.
and I wanna believe you,
when you tell me that it'll be okay.
am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place?
when you turn around,
can you recognize my face?
you used to love me, you used to hug me
but that wasn't the case
everything wasn't okay.
I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there,
grinning with a lost stare.
that's when i decided.

but do i still miss you?

the love to give

SHOUTOUT: THANK YOU SOOO MUCH, MY ANGEL!!!!! I'M LOVING THE CUTE GIFTS MUCHO! :) just wait til you see what i got for you as a reward hahah

SHOUTOUT: MY MORTAL, (you wouldn't know who you are, but still) I'LL TRY MY BEST TO BLESS YOU AS THE GAME IS ENDING SOONNN. HAVE HOPE! :)

ahh the game is ending soon.
well, it doesn't stop here :)

exams are literally killing me, in a way.
burned up for two nights..
so even if it doesn't kill me
i bet my brain cells like, died and evaporated away
lol
but i don't feel i'm stressed or anything
so why do i show syptoms or stress?
hm.

okay i'll go watch chc's live broadcast now.
it's kinda cool to see it in a different light.

alrighty, all the best for whatever-exams-or-even-if-you-don't-have-no-exams-i-dont-care-im-just-wishing-everyone-lah! :)

september holidays

this week is the time for mugging man.
not mug mug, as in rob a man kind of mug.
but mug mug, as in study like hell until we're mugged out.

whoever created this word to use instead of the word 'study'..
well, you can either appreciate their creativity or loathe their eng vocab.

first of all,
the word 'mug' is not even associated to studying or anything educational.

mug.
noun, verb, mugged, mug·ging.
–noun
1. a drinking cup, usually cylindrical in shape, having a handle, and often of a heavy substance, as earthenware.
2. the quantity it holds.
3. Slang. a.the face. b.the mouth. c.an exaggerated facial expression; grimace, as in acting. d.a thug, ruffian, or other criminal.
4. British Slang. a gullible person; dupe; fool.
–verb (used with object)
5. to assault or menace, esp. with the intention of robbery.
6. Slang. to photograph (a person), esp. in compliance with an official or legal requirement.
–verb (used without object)
7. Slang. to grimace; exaggerate a facial expression, as in acting.

whereas the word 'study' doesn't even mention anything that has to do with 'mug' :
stud·ied, stud·y·ing, stud·ies v.
To apply one's mind purposefully to the acquisition of knowledge or understanding of (a subject).
To read carefully.
To memorize.
To take (a course) at a school.
To inquire into; investigate.
To examine closely; scrutinize.
To give careful thought to; contemplate: study the next move.

though to me it's pretty clever to use the word mug instead of study.
maybe it originated from a code.
like, you didn't want anyone to know you're studying tonight so you'll say you're gonna mug tonight.
hm.

the english language is so ginormous and can be rather perplexing and abstruse to the simple human mind.
but actually, our brain, up to the day we die, is only used up 10%.
so we're all super geniuses if we can work all 100% of our brain.
(but now experts are saying that the 10% thing is a myth. we only use u 0.09%.................. no i'm just kidding. scientists say we use up much more brain power than 10 measly percent)

and did you know that the word 'ginormous' is officially a proper word.
no, it ain't a shortform or slang no more.
it's been added into the English Dictionary!
in fact, hundreds of newly formed words are added in the dictionary every year..

who knows, one day when we teenagers have used the word 'mugged' long enough, it will finally be recognised as an actual word.
or better yet, we should all keep saying and using the word 'felicia' to describe something great. then 'felicia' can soon be added into the dictionary, like this :

felicia - adjective.
to describe wonderful, powerful, great, remarkable, exceptionally outstanding, astonishing, slightly nutty, hihgly reactive things in your wildest imaginations - but never your worst nightmare.

oh yeah :D

just one small piece of wood block...

... can cause such a big impact.

you'll see what i mean.
this happened only a few hours ago, with my dad and i.

HOW TO GET A FREE RIDE FROM JURONG WEST TO BALESTIAL ROAD, THEN TO CLEMENTI. (don't s'poreans all love freebies :)

step 1: take your car out and drive yourself to a clinic in jurong west.
step 2: as you drive from the small slip road to the big PIE highway road, keep driving at your rather high constant speed striaght up.
step 3: just as your car is cruising down the highway, drive unsuspectingly over a piece of wooden block.
step 4: traumatised from the big impact of bumping, slow down your car to check for your own safety.
step 5: realise that your tire may be busted. pull up to the side of the road to check it out.
step 6: you find not one, but two, flat tires. (you only have one spare tire)
step 7: having no choice, call the tow truck person to come and tow your car for repair.
step 8: the tow-man comes and replaces one tire first. (the whole process of changing a car tire is quite fascinating to watch)
step 9: you hop on to his truck as he loads your car up his ramp thingy, and he drives you and the helpless car to balestial road for late night service repairs.
step 10: reached your destination. the repairman tells you your tire rim is broken too, and they can't fix it there.
step 11: the nice tow-truck man sends you to toh tuck road's tire factory instead.
step 12: after you drop your car off at the tire factory, the super nice tow-truck man gives a lift back to clementi.
step 13: driving in all the way, he drops you at your doorstep.

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& that's how it's done :D
of course kids, don't try this at home.
afterall, the wooden block may be small.
but it's not that small. (big enough to give you two busted tires and a broken tire rim)
plus, a few cars were affected by it too.
me and my dad saw them changing their tires too. lol
the worsest case was that one motorcyclist tripped over the wood and he fell.
but he managed to run to the side of the road b4 the cars could knock him over.

what a night.
and now, to round up the evenful night with another evenful event!
sleep.

zzz

once and for all.

it's settled.
in school, and out of school.

this week's been a wake-up call.
what's been done, has been done.
now..
we can only wait for our impending doom.

still,
i feel relieved.
i can finally unlock that burden..
oh, my heart's so much lighter now.

i never thought i'd feel like this :)

busy week, with love all around

okay, one week's almost gone..
2 more weeks to prelims.
6 more weeks to O's.

ah, gotta stop stressing myself.

so like, this week's been pretty busy for me.
studied most of the time
surprisingly i don't get as tired as i used to get when i tried to study last time.
i hope the motivation stays.
and for the rest of the time i'm out with my friends.
it balances things don'tcha think?
that way i won't get too cross-eyed when the exams finally come.
&& it's been great going to jy's and rae's cell..
life has really looked up again since He came back into my life :)

on thurs night, 17th,
we (amelia, limei, rachel, jingying, melissa and me) had a girls' night out!
it was funnn. haha
ate at new york new york!
yummy yummy stuff.
not to mention big portion-ed too.
and the couch place where we were seated on was simply comfy.
we took some pictures and i'll upload 'em when amelia's sent it to me!
but for now,
here's one that i stole from mel. hehe.


:)

today, 19th.
met up with rae, cherie and jingying to go to suntec to support the guys of UTG for their competition's heats.
we went for lunch at long john's
and found out many things concerning maggots.
lol
lucky for you, i shall not share the sordid details here on my lovely egg-ed blog. :)
then we headed down to suntec,
only to find that it only starts at 6.
(it was only like, 4.20 then?)
and mrs chng ordered us to go walk around first b4 it started.
we're not in dance anymore and she still bosses us around.
ah well.
so we strolled around and jia'en came.
later,
it was UTG's turn for the competiton and can i say that they blew the crowd away?
they were real good and everyone was cheering for them.
whooo am i proud of them.
of course, this makes me feel like groovin' to the music too.
raggae classes, here i come!

after that, we took lotsa pictures with rae's big cam, with bjorn as our photographer. (he can consider a career in this as he's pretty good)
it was fun fun fun!
i like the jumping picture of us.
haha
shall upload ALL the photos here when i get them,
so beware of a huuuge photo post again. :D


i found this and yeah, once again, decided to post it up here.
it was quite loong ago..
at cineleisure's toilet, if i'm not wrong.
ahh jingying blocked her own face!

anyways i needa go to bed now.
gonna conk out soon. zzz
good night, world & enjoy your weekend.

well, i just got to say,
this is not what i want, this is not what i planned.
but now i see, clearly.
we weren't meant to be.
minus you i'm better off, i guess.
you may think i'm just trying to comfort myself
but when i come to think of it,
you weren't really there for me like you said you'd be.
so even without you,
i'm not really lost.
what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.
yeah, i'm pretty strong now.
but i guess you're not.
cors you're acting like a coward
-by choosing the easy way-
by avoiding it.
don't you think at least an explanation is needed?

So what if right now everything's wrong?

i just posted the pictures of the the portraits.
scroll down to 6th aug post :)
hope it doesn't kill your com's speed.
lol

today's national day!
i'm loving the theme song. haha

last night i slept over at jy's.
it's comforting to have your bestfriend there when you're out of sorts.
thanks for giving up your bed for me!
and with good presence, it's just nice to have fellowship time.
oh, before that, trena came over and we played billards!
naturally i sucked at it.
so i just went to read while my brother and his friend play on with trena.
haha.

anyways, i went with jy for her cell gathering thing
and i'm glad i went :)
i liked everyone there as they were friendly and all that.
playing in settler's cafe was fun too!
i could stay there the whole day. lol

if only life could ever go the way we planned.
but it can't.
if only i could get my dad to just buy it back with his credit card.
but he can't.
if only i could drown in my mother's love forever, then i won't need anyone's love anymore.
but i can't.
if only i could throw a hissy fit just to get things done my way.
but i can't.
'cause i guess you've made up your mind.
and there's nothing i can do to change it.
so i'll accept it and wish you all the best.
i'll try to be strong and face the world head on, shoulders squared and chin raised up.
but i'll still be missing those days, those memories.
and i'll hang on to that diaphanous bit of hope.
waiting for the day when you finally have the time for me again.

if it makes me happy
it can't be that bad
if it makes me happy
then why the hell am i so sad

where is the love?

conclusion of the day?


people are superficial beings.


it is even scientifically proven!
and unfortunately i'm one of the test subject.

(it's like life's playing this cruel joke on me to prove how vain men can be)

see, i rushed back to sch today for the SPA practical or else the whole thing'll have to be postponed and i cannot live with the guilt.
so as i left the house, i was well aware that my fugly swollen eye and cheek has not healed yet, but i chose not to bother too much.
i even believed in the goodwill of men to be kind to me and not sneer when they catch a glimpse of my mishappened face.

but yet again,
i was wrong.
soo wrong.
i was walking to school and everytime someone walked past me-
and i have no idea why everyone has to look at each other's face while walking down the street i mean, why cant we just walk to our destinations without looking at strangers-
they would look at my face then turn away with whatever expression they get when they see something bad.
lol like it was me who asked them to look at my lovely face.
i am perfectly happy if they had just carried on minding their own businesses and faces, while i brisk-walk my way to school.
but nooo, i had to fight my way through all the embarrassed/guitly/disgusted/shameful stares.
whatever.

why do they care anyway?
aren't i depressed enough to be in this pathetic situation, and now on top of that, i have to live with stares from random people whom i may never see again. & i can't wear my shades too because if i do,
it'll just attract more attention and they might think i'm some despo wannabe celeb whose face resembles a stuffed one-sided dumpling.
ahh that's it.
i'm locking myself in the house and never, ever coming out again til' my face swells down.

the only thing is,
i have this craving for chocolates now.
but i can't and won't go out to buy it- to aviod more stares again.
can a kind soul please buy it and magically transport it to my mailbox?

sigh. i think no one would really be that charitable. really, my faith in mankind is semi-gone, after today's traumatic incidents. maybe i can teach my dog how to run errands for me. and his first task would be buying a bar of tolberone from 7-11..

digressing, don't you find that whenever we're sick, we have loads of food that we crave for. but when we're fit, we don't seem to want anything in particular? how weird is that, right?
or maybe it's just me. hm.

p.s. i'll upload the photos that sara and chester've taken, soon!
when i'm not feeling so down, that is.
right now i just want to crawl to my bed and die.

BIG picture files alert! may lag your com. my apologies.

behold.... The Pictures!
(p.s. i was wearing shades cors my eye was already swollen that day. and i know, i know i'm skinny. but i've been trying to gain weight. it should work..i hope)



ain't this a gr8 shot?

mag model material!

me&hings!

stripes; purple and white

:D

you know you love us :P

jia'en&me :)

lol. candid?

he was in need of some colour.

pssst, 'twas jingying's idea!

filthy!

okay pretty random, but i found this and decided to add it here.

since im lagging up your coms already anyway. heh

this was a year ago, when in Perth!

okay, his eyes are now pink. bye!

4th of august

Jingying, Jia en and me helped Sara and her friend, Chester for this project that they're supposed to do for photography class!
portraits.
so we went to arab street and haji lane to get some pictures
and well, we were quite shy about it at first.
but when we got used to it, it was a blast! (literally too. the sun was melting us. lol)
and it was a wonder the camera didnt die or su'm due to my swollen eye.
i'm glad my dad's old ray ban aviators came to good use.
sara took about 100++ photos while chester took like, 400++ photos and they are supposed to pick out only 5 for their submission.
all i can say is,
may the force be with them :)

after which, i went home to change and my family went out to have a birthday celebration dinner for my dearest lil'brother!
had some ah-mazingly delish BBQed food with sambal and the works.
happy brithday, Shawn! :)
i will always be your favourite (and only) sister. you will share with me your ice popsicles, and i shall give you a bite out of my yummy choc donut. we'll continue to laugh at the lamest thing as we crap through the night. and when im all ugly with bad hair days, i can count on you not to grimance at the sight of me, but to smile and talk to me.
i love my lil'brother!

and yeah i skipped the achievers' day & arts@tanglin performance.
i wanted to go to support my friends who got the awards, but i went for my brother's dinner instead. (ms kavitha's gonna come after me with a hammer on monday)
sorry i couldn't be there, but i'm real proud of them! way to go! :D
wanted to go to watch the guys do their dancebliss item too, but i heard their performance was da bomb, no doubts man.

argh.
i look hideous now.
i am soo not in a condition to go out today.
i am gonna stay at home, do homework, and watch old dvds.
i like watching dvds.
i am hungry. haha
ah wells,
good bye, world.
i'll probably be in hiding til' tmrw.
for now, i'll just wrap my head in a big silk scarf and order pizza for lunch.

so long!

2 more months to Olvls;
joy.

alas, i miss Ben.

Birthday Wishes*

i dont normally do titles, but i thought i would dedicate the title honour to all the people who've recently or will be celebrating their birthday soon.

firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

& all the best for your future endeavous!
love, peace and happiness to you. :)

here are just a few that i'll name as their names are on the top of my head.
-SARA! :D
-JESLYN!
-RACHEL! :D (coming soon.)
-ADRIEL!(coming soon.)
-SHAWN! :) (coming soon)
-MY MOM!! (coming soon)

yeah, within this span of weeks..
there are already 6 birthdays coming up/very recently gone.
and those are only the ones whom i manged to remember!
i know that there are plenty more.. but it's past midnight now and i'm sleepy. so my brain isn't exactly functioning well.

today,
jingying's church had this performance put up at UCC and her uncle bought us- chia lynn, min han, jia en & me- the tickets. (thank you jy's uncle john!)
we were rushing and running our way there, while stuffing our dinners into our mouths, as we were late for the show.
it had already started when we got seated, but i dont think we missed much..
anyways, it was a meaningful performance of love above all.
the singers were good. i like their voices. and chia lynn, his voice is supposed to be trembling because of his emotion! (i think, think)

yesterday,
jingying, chia lynn, rachel and me went to sara's place at night to give her a brithday surprise!
jingying was lighting the candles on the windy corridors outside sara's house when chia lynn put her arm around jingying to block out the wind and jingying was so shocked that she screamed.
real loud. so loud that sara's father came out of the house.
lol.
but our cover wasn't blown.
so jingiyng and rachel managed to light the candles and we sang the birthday song outside her house.
played monopoly after the cake-cutting and cake-eating.
sara has her brithday luck with her!
and jingying the banker was multi-tasking, chia lynn was being chia lynn, rachel didnt become chia lynn despite the number of houses she had and i never seem to land on any free property to buy.
it was fun and i hope sara enjoyed herself :)

oh gosh, ben commented on how my english was 3 years ago..
so i couldn't resist but to look at my archives and boy, was i horrified.
i mean, i used 'iz' and everything.
i cant help but laugh at myself and the weird way i typed my blog entries the last time. and i gotta agree with ben. my english was rather broken 3 years ago. lol
and i gave chia lynn a door knob-cum-birthday card thing that has been with me since sec 2. i had bad grammar! i wrote 'these' instead of 'this'.
at least i've improved now! :D
though i still make errors in my english language every day..
hey, no one's perfect.

and from this quite-drastic change of usage of english,
this shows how we humans change constantly!
just look at your old posts like i did, and you'll see what i mean :)
but of course, if you've been writing perfect english or the same interesting content for your blog all these years- then i guess i've nothing to say except to applaud you.

opps. it's getting late and i've to wake up early to pass jy her wallet.
'kay, nights and pleasant dreams!
<3

Let me know that you'll keep me safe
I don't want you to run away so
Let me know that you'll call on time
Let me know that you'll help me shine
Will you wipe my tears away
Will you hold me close and say,
When it's not alright
When it's not OK
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright? Will you say OK?
Will you stick with me through whatever? Or run away

haha this skin is real cute!
just look at the animation, man.
anyways, it was about time i changed my blogskin.
so here it is! :)

today's weather is damn chilly.
i've my jacket on but my hands are still cold.
no, i dont think i'm thaat weak.
this season's where a lot of people are falling ill.
gosh the world really is ending.
i mean, the past years of june and july used to be the hottest period of the year.
now it's like a freakish december weather.
hm, if the world really were to end soon..
how would you spend your last moments alive?

i'm not sure. but i'm sure that if i don't study hard now, my last moments are near. the day i collect my GCE O Level Examination Results Slip, that is.

focus, felicia. focus. o_O alliterations? lol.

right. i've wasted enough time on the com.
time to do homework, homework and more homework :X

p.s: yay the last harry potter book is out! man, i want to read it now. but my dad's only getting it for me next week :(

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cause I'm in love with you.

Your Inner Pop Princess Is Kelly Clarkson

"Grew up in a small townAnd when the rain would fall downI'd just stare out my windowDreaming of what could be" No doubt about it, you have star quality. Might just take a while to get there.

Who's" Your Inner Pop Princess?

i had a tiny bit of spare time to do this quiz thing.
lol

My school's cool.

unique tree thingy in the middle of our school grounds.

trena, me and jeslyn at the school pond!

us again! :)

gotta love our weird poses. hee

me, kah chan, qi hui, trena and jeslyn!

4e222222222 :)

i took this last shot!

don'tcha think my skills have improved? :D

so like, we have this yearbook for us to compile all our 2007 stuff in.

and the graduating classes get more space to display their last fond memories of tanglin.
but we all got to submit a photo each witha 50 word caption, and ours was taken totally last minute.
took by the pond.

and im telling you, it's all green with algae!

to anyone who falls in: please stay in your bath tub to soak for at least an hour :)
it's real dirty. and i didnt see much live fishes. lol

anyways, we took some pics around the pond and foyer.

oh! trena and jeslyn wanted to throw me in the algae-infested waters!

thank goodness i fled, or the results would have been disasterous.

sch's been pretty tiring.

like, 12 hours of studying!

please let me complain here.

(i cant complain to mrs oei, can't i?)

i mean, some students can take the constant studying and all.

but i really can't handle it.

i mean, it's seriously killing me.

i get headaches and all.

and i can't even write this blog post properly now!

sigh. O lvls suck big time.

ohoh! i keep forgetting to post up the pics for this looong ago trip to escape theme park.

jingying, sara, jia en and me went to escape one day, during the last week of the june hols.

the rides were pretty much the same and there wasn't much to ride anymore.

the haunted house was so disappointing!

not scary at all.

it was supposed to be scary, that we'll run out screaming.

but we just walked out of the house.

ah wells, perhaps escape's tryna cut cost and scrimp on the ghost actors.

but!

the daytona go-kart made up for all the other lackluster rides!

jia en suggested riding this, and at first we were kinda tentative.

didnt want to kill someone.. or mainly, ourselves.

it was so fun- to zoom around the tracks.

and addictive.

you just wanna do it again and again and again.

well, these are some pics we took!

jia en took this for us, at her own expense. sorry girl!
we were in line for the daytona :D

the mini ferris wheel- the nice work guy helped us to take this.

in the toilet drying off after the big splash at 'wet n wild'

jia en and sara did the gatsby thing. haha

cant wait for the vid to be done!

yup, drying off by the hair dryers.

(i was tryna dry my shorts. lol.)

escape!

haha
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i love love david and goliath tees and slogan!
okay im gonna rip off some of their pics to show you what i mean.

oops gtg. i'll edit again.

ben's not well. do feel better, baby :)

my mom's sick too!

my dad's taking her to the docs now.

kay, laters!

oh man.
my blog is in sooooo much need of cleaning up.
i gotta change the blogskin,
write more entries,
change the blogskin..
and oh, did i mention i have to change the blogskin? (:

no not that i dont like this one (thanks again, jying)
but i want another one as this is getting quite old and all.

haha. i think im considered dead in this bloggersphere realm thingy-thingy.
cors i haven't updated in a supercalifagerlistic long time.
and i tend to procastinate when it comes to blogging..
so i warn you that after this post,
you may have to wait for another prehistoric century before i blog again.
:D

okay, time for new updates.
last week, saturday-
went out with jia en, jing ying and sara!
we journeyed to holland v under the VERY scorching sun (i really think the Sun is gonna just boil us all one fine day, screw the scientists' analysis (:)
they wanted to get skinnys. but that shop failed and had no skinnys or su'm.
so we went to pennisula shopping mall.
oh, we took the train to cityhall and waited for jia en there.
jia en's hair is soo nice now! (it was also very nice before)
i want big curls for my prom.
haha.
so jia en came in this cute get-up,
and we left for pennisula shopping mall.
they found their skinnys - i must digress and say it looks good on them when they tried it on -
and so after they purchased it,
we made our way to hereen.
took neoprints!
lol.
then i went to meet Ben.
we had dinner and then catched a movie
it went quite well and he's v.nice. :)
except, what's wrong with me?
this song'll explain it.(except the marrying part. lol)

I'm tugging out my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things
I'll never say

It don't do me any good
Its just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say
Yes I'm wishing my life away with these things
I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say what about you
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say
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at pamela's bday celebration dinner,
it was pretty fun
and their family's warm and funny. :)
they're all cool people.
haha

eeeek my bro wants to hog the com again ):
shall sign off now and i hope that the next time i post another entry,
you would not have grown a beard and have a weaken sense of sight!
til' next next time-
BYE!
(;

got this pic from a very interesting email. it has loads of other comics and cartoons. but i like this the best. lol.


well, just had some yummy food for my dinner.


which included chilied cuttlefish, steamed fish and lotus soup.


pretty ordinary and blah, you might say.


but never. ever. ever underestimate the power of homecooked meals.


besides being healthier and much more tastier(as i can add more salt if i want),


homecooked meals require talent and patience, injected with the right amount of love(:


unlike hawker meals sometime, where those owners sloppily scoop out your food and lazily cook it, adding too much, or too little salt or giving you tiny teeny portions of food that costs as much as a japanese meal.


call me a contradictionist, but not ALL the hawker stalls are like that. i am merely stating some incidents that left me with a bad taste in my mouth- other than that, i love hawker food just as much as anyone would :D





so anyway, my dad has like, 30 over cartons of some cute m&m sunshield car window thingy at home now.


cors apparently m&m ordered the sunshields but then cancelled the order. so his company got all the cartons and my mom's giving them out to her colleagues and all now.


but no, sorry i dont think i can give you some. seeing as you may mostly be my age, in which we do not own cars yet. and i dont think i can give you those freebies for your parents car.


unless i know them well(i mean, really well) then i would generously provide (:


but i just wanted to tell you how fun they are to play with!


my dad just brought out some samples to show my mom the designs,


and they are mucho mucho cute.


it has even one that shows the big fat blue m&m containg a peanut saying :" i have become even more tasty than you can imagine"


haha! adorable eh?


and after looking at it for a while, i wanna eat it too. (nooo not the sunshield, dope. m&ms!)


oh ya, i was saying that they were fun to play with cors, as you all know how those sunshield thingys work, they(the metal frame) are super flexible and bendable.


so i am like, twisting it and folding it to see how far it would go... and then releasing it to see it bounce bac--


ow OWW.


okay, i guess i cant twist it so far back.


or else i'll be hitting it on my nose again.


stupid flexible metal frame. ):





woah. gotta go. time to hit the sacks that are looking oh-so-comfy!


just one last thing though.


a scenario of me and my younger brother, in the case of puberty(?).


-fictional. all characters are subjected to their privacy rights. any incident that is similar in reality is purely coincidental. story is by scriptwriter's creativity. blah blah.





me:walking into the room.


him: what's up? pats my shoulder.


me: stares at him to see if it's a trick or something.


him: smiles innocently and pats my shoulder.


me: um. i'm your sister. giving him the evil eye.


him: oh ya. walks away.





this scenario was just made up by us for fun.


dont worry, my bro aint that despo in real life. in fact, he is not even a bit at all.


every sister's gotta be proud of him (: