to hear Your voice

We are the sum total of the choices we've made in our lives,
who we are now is because of what we choose to let in and let out.
And over time, these things shape us.
Free will.

But at certain points in time,
we may need to make decisions so big that it will change our lives.
Imagine if you'd gone with this instead of that.
How would your life turn out?
I may have felt sad or angry but now I think I learn from them,
to become who I am today too.
So in a way, I am who I am because of the choices I didn't make..
if that makes sense.
*
& now,

just a simple decision of whether I should further my studies or stay in sg is proving harder to decide.

*
Pray.

Our hope is Yahweh, Yahweh

turn off the lights and listen to the song.
sing it out with all your heart, dance the dance He has given you.
no one's watching, just you and Yahweh.

Moments

OMG my dad's super funny i seriously LMAO-ed and ROFL-ed

My mac's batt was dying and I have this automated voice to warn me and so just now my dad was sitting beside me when the mac said 'you are now running on reserve battery power'

then my dad went 'huh what you say??????????????????' to my mac.

It was funny in the moment but now you're prolly scratching your head and thinking I need some sleep. You're right, I do. Good night.

"You are now running on reserve battery power"

*suppressed laughter*

Oh daddy thanks for always cracking me up.

Had a good time today at g-g-games night too! Wii was aweomse food was awesome people are awesome. One big word to sum it up: FAMILY.

"See, we make this way too complicated. If a guy likes you, he will let you know. End of story. Until that happens, you can go on being your classy, witty, and amazing self. When he finally shows up, he won’t think twice about asking you out, and all you’ll have to do is say yes."

How to Be a Hepburn in a Hilton World

Bigger capacity

Good to be

S ---------T ------------ R ------------E--------------- T ---------------C -------------H ---------------E ------------D

because

you can take it.

we can take it.

i can take it.

A good beat never hurt no one

Interesting Incident

Was working in babyware and so this chatty swedish lady and I got talking about baby products and all. Amazing how I can hold a conversation about baby products now.

Where was I? Oh yes, baby talk.

So our conversation went like this after she was telling me about her obedient and respectful little boy.

Me: Wow I wish my boy will be like that *thinking of the future*

Lady: *thinking of the 'now'* OH you have a boy huh? Sorry I couldn't tell butwellyouknowinthisagehahaha- how old are you, dear?

Me: Oh no no I'm 18 and I don't--

Lady: 18! Goodness you have a head start. So how old's your husband?

Me: I'm not married!

Lady: Oh it's alright it's becoming so common now we woman can raise a child on our own, I always tell my hubby hahahaha

Me: Yeah but it must be tiring.. This neck support cushion is comfortable for your boy, I'm sure he'll like it.

Lady: Hm yes he likes blue..... *touches the cushion*

Me: And it's $XX too. And I don't have a child.

Lady: Oh silly me! I thought you had. Mmm okay I'll buy it.. And that bib too for my grandson. He's in sweden now but he's part singaporean!

Random conversations like that amuse me so.

Uh-huh that's how bored I am at work sometimes.. (hint: visit babyware)

Haha but let me know if you're coming, I wouldn't want you catching me mid-daydream with my eyes glazed over and my mind light years away.

Not that I daydream often, of course. It's just sometimes there's nothing much to do so I stare into space and next thing you know I'm singing beside britney spears! Quite addictive, I must say.

So hi stephen if you're reading this, I don't mean to slack and when I'm not dreaming I'm 100% focused on the shop and baby products and customers :D go babyware!

In all honesty, I love babyware and I like to daydream.

I daydream we'd all be walking randomly and someone will talk a guitar out and start playing and someone sings in and we all dance jump laugh sing along. Like sound of music lol

I've been surviving because the joy of the Lord is my strength, and I'm recharged every night from spending time with You.

DOSE OF CHIO-NESS

leggings

another pair of ACNE wedge

rings! or should i say finger bracelets? lol

i'm contemplating buying this cors i'm looking for black wedges like that but i shouldn't waste money right?
but... but.
okay nevermind i shall not impulse shop.
*pats self on back*

I want to be brave(r)

"Superman isn’t brave. He is indestructible, indestructible people can’t be brave. It’s normal people who know that they can be crushed, but do it anyway, who are truly brave."

I thought I felt my heart break.
But after spending time talking or meeting with friends who are in their own way precious to me,
I know that things aren't that bad as I thought.
God's love flowed out of them to me.
They filled up my love bank haha thanks!

Yeah Jying, I'm looking around and counting my blessings.
And rachel xoxo nafa, don't run from it, you're stronger than you think :)

Feast today, for tomorrow we fight.

Time to nourish the body.

Banana + nutella + wholemeal bread (Y)

And wow am I one lucky girl or what, there's 2 bananas at home now

AND I've nutella AND wholemeal bread

Just my two cents worth,

I was thinking that now the food I eat tastes so bland and how am I gonna get the strength to get well if I keep skipping my meal due to poor appetite and therefore I conclude-

When you are sick, is the time when you should eat tasty and yummy food so that you can eat irregardless if your taste buds are hibernating or fighting wars with thousands of germs now and you will surely gobble up the food and food = energy = strength = fight off sickness = recover faster!

I think if I'm sick and I eat hospital food daily I would remain sick because I will have to force myself to eat and will not be happy and if I'm not happy then where will my will power to fight the sickness come from?

So I think that when you're sick you should be at your happiest and not being miserable in a cold dark danky room crying.

'cause being in sch even when I'm sick and seeing my friends being so concerned and nice to me = makes me happy = makes me feel better = recover faster!

Sometimes the people we love just forget to love us back.

My cry

People are gonna disappoint you. I get that… I kind of expect that. But I don’t know. What if you wake up one day and realize that you’re the disappointment?

*

Well, learn from this, buck up and keep moving. I can't just kill myself because of a setback.
I need You so much more, I can do so little alone.
Oh Lord, oh Lord, oh Lord.

BE PRODUCTIVE. MAKE O-M-G S'MORE BARS

Recipe:

Ingredients:

1/2 cup butter, room temperature
1/4 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup sugar
1 large egg
1 tsp vanilla extract
1 1/3 cups all purpose flour
3/4 cup graham cracker crumbs
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
2 king-sized milk chocolate bars (e.g. Hershey’s)
1 1/2 cups marshmallow creme/fluff (not melted marshmallows)

Directions:

Preheat oven to 350°F. Grease an 8-inch square baking pan. In a large bowl, cream together butter and sugar until light. Beat in egg and vanilla. In a small bowl, whisk together flour, graham cracker crumbs, baking powder and salt. Add to butter mixture and mix at a low speed until combined. Divide dough in half and press half of dough into an even layer on the bottom of the prepared pan. Place chocolate bars over dough. 2 king-sized Hershey’s bars should fit perfectly side by side, but break the chocolate (if necessary) to get it to fit in a single layer no more than 1/4 inch thick. Spread chocolate with marshmallow creme or fluff. Place remaining dough in a single layer on top of the fluff (most easily achieved by flattening the dough into small shingles and laying them together). Bake for 30 to 35 minutes, until lightly browned. Cool completely before cutting into bars.

Makes 16 cookie bars.

MM-MMMM. I SHALL MAKE THEM ON FRI/SUN/MON

we, are family

Some of my cousins/aunt/grandpa in this pic.

Guy whose face is half-blocked with the cool hat is the guy who just opened this shop with 2 other people! Wow so proud of him, the shop looks amazingly trendy hip and it's so cool it intimidates me (just a tiny bit)

You HAVE to go see it

XSQUAD

XSQUAD

XSQUAD

The Cathy, 3rd floor.

*

On a completely random note, my dad once (accidentally, I think) said:

'Hey why don't you turn on the window and close the fans?'

LOL he says it every time now so recently I just leave my windows open and my fan off so when he walks into my room to check on me, he'll always have a chance to say that.

Does no good looking in the past.

That's it, I'm throwing some things out

Thought-bubble:

I have loads to say, but they're all stuck in my head.

I can look at you and think of a million things I wanna say to you,

but once I actually get my chance to speak,

the million things get stuck in my head and refuse to become sound.

So in the end I can only sit there waiting and hoping you'll start the conversation first.

After a while you'll probably think I'm boring or zoning out,

while inside I'm bursting to share the beauty and excitement of life with you.

It takes me a while b4 I can open up to you and slowly one by one the cluttered things in my head will start streaming out day by day until they're all out and this time, I'd really be out of things to say. But by then we would've been friends and friends don't need to talk all the time to remain friends.

Today, we had a substitute in class. Right before she began to call the roll, everyone in my class decided that we were gonna say "chop" when our name was called. She started calling everyone's name and was confused at first about our responses, but soon went along with it. When the very last person's name was called, instead of saying "chop" he replied "timber!" and we all fell out of our seats. Easily the best homeroom ever. MLIA

DVFX classmates can we do this one day lol

'CORS I JUST SET THEM UP, JUST SET THEM UP, JUST SET THEM UP, TO KNOCK 'EM DOWN DOWN D-D-DOWN*

Wow super cr8tive, these people.

The fun theory, where they make the simple things in life more fun to do.

Wish someone is singapore would do something like that,

then maybe our kiasu-ness or laziness will slowly change.

Have been getting increasingly annoyed at public transport lately. It's either my patience is wearing thin or some singaporeans just loove pushing and squeezing their way through like they'll just die of hunger if they don't get on board the train first. Makes me want to put on a helmet and yell 'CHARGE!' every time the train doors open. And now I'm all fired up to rant.

Take. A. Deep. Breath.

-

*Listening to starstrukk now, liking the whistles much.

You know that type of shit just don't work on me,

Whistling and trying to flirt with me.

Don't take it personally, 'cors we were never in love.

Doesn't really matter who you say you are,

Singing out the window of your car.

Find another girl across the bar,

'Cors L.O.V.E's not what this was.

Y'know how people go home to escape from the pressures of work

Yet

Some people stay at work to escape from the pressures at home.

Life's not easy.. The fact that we're still alive and progressing means that we are tough.

Sch's starting omg

My phone comes with 5 alarm clocks and so I'll use them all.

That's why phones give you 5 alarms right?

For people who tend to snooze their alarms..

I'm using my phone to the fullest :D

“ The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts.

— Bertrand Russell

Hey Jying, what was that new John Grisham book you were telling me about?

Something about brothers.

The brother?

Hahaha okay shall stop teasing you,

you say 'brethren' just fine :D

Had a lovely time with you on tues, sushi and all <3

Daiso photos up soon hehe

Today, I was walking around my friend's neighborhood, where I spotted two girls trying to flirt with a boy who looked a lot like Robert Pattinson by quoting Twilight. I interrupted them by tackling the boy from behind, screaming, "Cedric!". He turned around to see me and my Asian features, and hugged me back, screaming, "Cho!" I got his number. MLIA

Mind filter

If it ain't good, delete it.
You're worth better thoughts in your head.
We've limited space in our minds, don't waste that.

"What if the water that came out of the shower was treated with a chemical that responded to a combination of things, like your heartbeat, and your body temperature, and your brain waves, so that your skin changed color according to your mood? If you were extremely excited your skin would turn green, and if you were angry you'd turn red, obviously, and if you felt like shiitake you'd turn brown, and if you were blue you'd turn blue.

Everyone could know what everyone else felt, and we could be more careful with each ohter, because you'd never want to tell a person whose skin was purple that you're angry at her for being late, just like you would want to pat a pink person on the back and tell him, "Congratulations!"

Another reason it would be a good invention is that there are so many times when you know you're feeling a lot of something, but you don't know what the something is. Am I frustrated? Am I actually just panicky? And that confusion changes your mood, it becomes your mood, and you become a confused, gray person. But with the special water, you could look at your orange hands and think, I'm Happy! That whole time I was actually happy! What a relief! "

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. Jonathan Safran Foer.

DTC4DM

(desperate times call for desperate measures)

facebook, youtube, online shopping webs, blogs, tumblrs, hotmail;

machiam like my boyfriend already..

DISTRACTION

I'm cutting ya'll out of my life until I get things done!

BYEEE

here's another acronym to tide my blog over the no-more-new-post days ahead!

SLTY2D

(scandalous lives of youth today)

my eyes were opened to a few things. . .

hohoho

P.S okay not so scandalous but still! Exciting times we live in now huh?

SUPERheros

mad awesome!

lovin' this pic (Y)

Reply

'if you really want t know. you can ask for identity ;)'

who are you! haha sorry I've been guessing a lot but I still am not very sure..

& I'm hope you're feeling better now :)

Some things simple;

"I remember being young. Having crushes that weren’t longer than a week. Valentine’s days came around and everyone knew they’d get a cute little card that said something cheesy, but cute to us. I remember putting his last name with my first and it went so well together. I was young, but even then I believed in love."

taken from a random tumblr.

Yeah I remember being young, where everything was so simple.

We knew what we wanted- chocolate flavoured ice cream, no broccoli, yes more sweets please, a speed bike, a lacy pink dress, no talking to strangers and who we liked, we liked.

But somewhere along the years of growing up, things complicate. We complicate.

When sometimes it all comes down to the simple thing of want, not wanting, and love.

BRK TIME

Check out my scowl, that's just like how marquis looks when he's chewing his bone.

Meanest lollipop in da world, I'm tellin' ya.

But this sweet will keep me going for a while as I'm doing some stuff now

Needa keep those sugar level up, like what hannah taught us hehe

Okay break's over G2G!

Reply

"I\'m.... right. :("

To the person who sent me this email, I wanted to find a way to reply you privately but I realized I couldn't so I'll put what I have to say here..

Regarding studies, I couldn't really focus on stuff cors I was distracted. Like during the moment I may have a lot of things going on in my head. I got them out by talking them out or just not thinking about things. Maybe you currently have a lot of things on your mind. Clear those things then remembering things will be easier :)

I guess there isn't a right person but you can find someone you trust who will help make things right. Alternatively you can always talk to me, via the emailform if you still wanna remain unknown.

I hope this helps.

Theme: Sun (light)

(I would so wear this if I had it! No wonder I don't have it)


(Pink shoes! I brought some other pink shoes in the wrong size sobs but I just wanna keep them cors they're so pretty)

(okay nothing to do with the sun light but I just had to post this!)

Lastly,

"Cause everywhere I go my life is a party,
I don't have a worry, the sun keeps on shining on me,
Look how it's shining on me,
You can't tell me nothing, look out cause I'm coming,
The street is my runway and everyone's looking at me,
All of their eyes are on me"

I like her new song & video. Check it out!

My life is average (yeah right)

- Today, I heard that Mountain Dew lowers your sperm count. I freaked out because I drink a lot of it, and I want kids. Then I remembered that I'm a girl. MLIA.

- Today, it's my time of the month. I was craving something sweet. I was searching through my backpack and found a box of Dots with a note from my boyfriend saying "Please don't hurt me today. I love you." I realize why I love him so much. MLIA

- Today, I got into a fight at school, and my principal called my dad. When he arrived, she told him that I got into a fight. The first thing he said was 'Who won?!'. When I told him I did, he gave me a high five then turned to the principal and said 'So does she get some sort of prize or something?'. The look on her face was priceless. MLIA.

- Today, as I was walking into Walmart. I was pretending I was a Jedi using 'the force' to open the automatic door. I continued in only to have the greeter say,"Welcome to Walmart, and may the force be with you" MLIA

- Today, I was flipping through my math textbook and I found a band aid inside it. When I turned to the next page I got a bad paper cut. Thanks mysterious person who left the band aid in my textbook. MLIA

- Today, I went to the record shop to get a movie that apparently has an age limit. The cashier asked for my ID, and I accidently showed him a Pokémon card that I've kept in my wallet for years. He smiled and said 'Level 28. OK, you're good'. MLIA

- Today I walked into our apple tree. It scratched me. Next thing I knew, an apple fell by my feet. Apology accepted. MLIA

- Today, my boyfriend came dancing into the kitchen singing my name over and over, just as I was preparing to leave for work. He saw me, blushed and said “Oh, you’re still here”. Made my day. MLIA

- Today, a guy at the store where I work asked me out. I said no. He asked me out again. I said no. The third time he asked me out I turned around, pointed my pen at him, and said, "Petrificus Totalus!" He fell to the ground as if he were petrified. We're going out tomorrow. MLIA

MLIA
(my life is average)

side note: at first I thought the 'A' in MLIA stood for 'awesome'. this website is where people post about their lives and the interesting things that happen to them.. like FML or GMH. but MLIA shows how 'average' life ain't so 'average' sometimes. well it's all on our perspectives.

Mmm whatcha say?

People who've left their digital footprints on my mac and heart!

Mix

You're all sorts of lovely drawing + studded ballet shoes + XOXO bag with may's cher bag + mary-kate's rings + chanel gone bling.

Lastly,

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LOL

NO MORE POISON KILLING MY EMOTIONS

WHAT UP, PEOPLE

I'M 18 NOW.

another birthday gone, another milestone crossed.

this year was full of ups and down,

this year i discovered so much more about myself and the people around me

this year was definitely the most exciting time of my life....

but just wait til next year!

Because I'm sucha straight and goody-two shoes I just HAD to wait til I'm properly legal to go into clubs, I can finally say I'm ready and I'm curious to see what it's all about because people either love it or h8 it. I think my parents are okay with that, surprisingly. I love you mum, dad!

Thank you for celebrating my bday with me, n329+e494 and jying!

(lol sounds like a lot of people eh, n329 PLUS e494 hehe)

You're just like family already and family is always there for each other and so thanks for being there for me when I needed someone.

When ya'll were giving the speeches I just kept wanting to cry.

Touched me, deep deep.

I got heels and a book for my bday haha of course :P

and thanks jying for that thoughtful and practical gift.

I'm exploding with love now

*jumps about*

I WILL NOT BE FROZEN

DANCING IS MY REMEDY REMEDY